07-06-05 2:45pm

It's not that I don't like you, it's that I never get a chance to. I don't want to ask you more than I should (I percive that as people trying to butt into your life), so why don't you just tell me about yourself.

And the reason the conversation stopped everytime you came over was because Amelia was wrapped up in you and I didn't want to interfear.

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Re:, 07-06-05 3:06pm

I don't know. The last two times we have hung out, everything seemed to be fine between us, but you keep bashing on me. I don't like it when people make judments about others when they actually don't know. I at least give the people I am talking about the benefit of the doubt by saying that what I say is my opinion from what I have observed and maybe I'm totally off. The reason the conservations stopped were because you chose to stop communicating. It had nothing to do with conversations about me, you guys were talking about college and the SAT's the first time, and then the spiritual life the second time. I really didn't say that much, and definitely nothing to direct the conversation about myself. I want you to be Amelia's friend, and I'm ok with that. I would even go so far as to wanting to be your friend as well. But as soon as you start saying hurtful things about me or her, I really don't feel like trying.

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Re: Re:, 07-07-05 12:43am

How am I bashing you? How was I bashing you? I'm just trying to respect your space. I know you don't like me that much, so it's hard to talk to you. And I wasn't saying anything mean to Amelia. How was I being hurtful? ANSWER THAT, because I truely don't understand! The conversations stopped, not because you walked up, but because Amelia didn't say anything else to me. Then you guys started talking about your work and everything... I know nothing about your work, so how was I supposed to have imput on the situation? What did you want me to say?

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Re: Re: Re:, 07-07-05 1:08am

You want to argue, you got it. Last time you hung out with amelia before last, she TOLD me that you were saying stuff that you don't like about me. THAT IS CALLED BASHING! What do you not understand about that? It comes straight out of your mouth! You think you know so much, but you just assume! You said that you "know" that I don't like you that much. Well, you are absolutely wrong. I like you just fine. You have your own shit to deal with, and that is why you are the way you are and I leave it at that. But you have no right coming in the middle of Amelia and my relationship and making judgements about me. The one I am most offended about is that you think I don't like her body, so I am trying to change that. That isn't the case! She has wanted to work on her body for a very long time and now has both motivation and help. You made it sound like I was a pig, when in reality if you took the time to get to know me, you would see I am just helping her. You should also take responsibility for your actions more. When I showed up, it was obvious to the whole world that you were uncomfortable talking with me, so why don't you just admit that instead of making excuses like "amelia stopped talking to me" or "you were talking about work". I admit I was uncomfortable talking to you as well, so I tried to join your college conversation and you responded by sitting in the shade by yourself. I'm supposed to want to be your friend. The last two times we hung out at Brittney's party and with Allan I had no problem with you and everything was fine. But I'll have you know that I am not going to go out on a limb and try to prove me wanting to be your friend just because you find it hard to get to know me. You really want to be friends, you have to make an effort. I'll at least meet you halfway...

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-07-05 1:23am

No, I wasn't trying to argue.

Secondly, I was telling her how I felt about her and how other people were treating her. She started talking about you, not I. She was saying how you are going to dump her if she doesn't start seeing herself as beautiful. This was my view on your relationship with her. Of course I didn't know much about it, I never hear you talk about your feelings towards it. All I remember about the body issue was you wanting to 'better' her. I see how she needs the motivation and needs someone to believe in her, it just seems like you're putting too much effort in. All you guys used to do was work out on DDR or through sit-ups. I personally think she needs to work on her insides before she does anything else on the outside. It's the image she has of herself, not her self image.

Can you recall what you said to me to try to get me talking to you? Because I just remember you sitting there waiting for someone to talk and when Amelia talked to you, you talked back. I didn't know what to say. I was trying to find a place to fit myself into the conversation but I didn't come across one because you were talking about stuff that I wasn't interested in. How did you join the college conversation? I remember you asking what my SATs were, but I feel so disappointed in myself for getting such a bad grade on them, I retreated out of that section of the conversation.


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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-07-05 2:55am

Look, I don't want to fight or say "who is right or wrong". Just please stop making comments about things you fully don't get cause you don't know the whole story. You say I'm pushing her and all we did was ddr and sit ups, which isn't true. Yeah working out takes time, but you weren't there to measure is what we were doing was taking up too much of our time or not, so don't say it was. We can get along as long as you promise me you will try to work on your assumptions. That's all I really want. I'll even promise to work on being more open to you so that you know the whole story. Deal?

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-07-05 3:00am

I wasn't commenting about that. I had a long time ago, but I was talking to Amelia openly. I wasn't aware she would say anything to anyone else about our conversation. Apparently I was completely wrong... It kind of feels like I can't trust her with that kind of stuff anymore because she'll obviously just tell you.

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-07-05 3:14am

Well, we don't keep things from eachother. Especially important things. She doesn't tell me everything you guys talk about, she just told me cause you talking about me bothered her. So don't feel like you can't trust her. She isn't to blame. You are for saying what you did. You still didn't answer my proposal. Do we have a deal or not?

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-17-05 11:53am

If it bothered her, she should have told me, and I would STOP.

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07-06-05 11:31pm

Jeremiah, we won't fight...we don't fight, do we?
We'll be friends for a long time. I promise.

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Re:, 07-06-05 11:44pm

No we don't, so I guess that means that we will be friends for a very long time. I like knowing that I will always have excellent friends in the future. It makes me feel happy. Thanks Brooke.

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