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| robbingnovember (profile) wrote, on 8-8-2005 at 2:03am | |
| Subject: and suddenly I'm melting into you |
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| Today in the car I told sara that I just know. I am scared to admit it, but I know I am in love. Because even the little things I could imagine sharing with him make me feel comfort and happiness. I just think of us just walking through my neighborhood and I can not imagine anything better. Waking up and having cereal.. showing him the sculpture garden. All of which will hopefully be possible in january. And my secret fear (and knowledge) is that he is not in love with me. I just know he does not think the same or feel the same. And i have been trying and lying to myself to get over him. Periods of hatred and desperation. But my dreams never let me escape. I am scared this will never work out. And then what of true love? on a completely seperate note. One summer quickly replaces another. As is the passage of time. What is of our future? It is replaced by another, as well. All dreams and stories thrown into the sea and eventually destroyed or forgotten to make new fantasies, new maps. And that leaves me feeling empty, if not jealous of what is new and fresh. Why do i hurt people like i do.. i never mean to. Dana is leaving soon and I can't deal. |
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| Anonymous | 08-08-05 7:57pm in love with who? |
robbingnovember | Re:, 08-09-05 2:57am if you know me you should know.. this is old news |