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| Robbingnovember (profile) wrote, on 2-12-2003 at 4:13pm | |
| Current mood: Im not happy Music: Bright Eyes- Waste of paint [lovely song] Subject: Why'd you gotta go and cut your hair, do you think its going to make him change (new hair cut mmm) |
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| It seems this year i have been generally happy. But right now i feel like i am going to slowly slip into some sort of depression again. I dont want to mess up this year with my thoughts. I'm really not good right now. Sometimes.. i hate being right. I hate being the only one at olympic who understands. I hate being soo invisible and lonely. and no one can truly relate.. although they can think they do. For some reason i let the littlest things build up in me. Not that i havent been thinking about the concept for awhile. There are the lucky ones and then there is me. I have a friend, he’s mostly made of pain He wakes up, drives to work and straight back home again He once cut one of my nightmares out of paper I thought it was beautiful, I put it on a record cover And I tried to tell him that he had a sense Of color and composition so magnificent And he said thank you, please, but your flattery It is truly not becoming me Your eyes are poor, you’re blind, you see No beauty ever could have come from me I’m a waste Of breath, of space, of time... And still to me I’m sick, lonely No laurel tree, just green envy Will my number come up eventually Like love’s some kind of lottery Where you scratch and see what’s underneath It’s sorry Just one cherry I’ll play again, get lucky - bright eyes ... yeah and it sucks . it sucks.. when you like someone . not really, but when you like someone and they get upset that your best friend has a boyfriend. That's not it though.. its just a detail. Its everything.. its how Im not going to be remembered or loved. I'm dead.. yeah |
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wannabe | 02-12-03 11:16pm <3 <3 <3 |