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| brutisimo (profile) wrote, on 8-18-2005 at 12:21am | |
| Wow, this summer was a mixture of tons of really shitty days and a few extra fantastic ones. There were some really awesome things that happened though, the most significant being that i strengthened some friendships that really got me through a summer from hell. 1.) Chip corwin (23) and I suffered through camp together, knowing that it wasnt supposed to be that way but also that we were the end of an era and from now on it probably will be like that, only no one will know how much it sucks. Our mutual dislike of our boss and his controling nature led us to spend almost all of our waking hours at camp in close proximity to one another. I think that if our ircumstances were different that he could be one of those guys in my life, but since he has a girlfriend, lives in another state, wants to leave the country and was my boss...there are many obstacles in the way, not to mention that he doesnt look at me the same way i see him. There were a couple times this summer though, when i looked into his eyes and I saw myself from his perspective...I never thought anyone would see me as anything other than average, but i know now that I am "A Star"...I miss that kid already and I hope he and Val have a great time in Europe. 2.) ryan davis (21) and I finally got back to Ryan and Alicia this summer. We talked and laughed and it felt so great to have my best friend back. mackenzie still hates me and both of them still blame the demise in our friendship on me, b ecause that is of course easiest, but the funny thing about it is that i dont really even miss being friends with her. I wish we could be in the same room without her giving me mean looks, but I think that will never happen. I dont want ryan as anything more than a friend and she should be secure enough in teir relationship after 8 years, besides the fact that is has always been her eyes that wandered. I wish being friends with ryan wasnt so hard, but i guess the best tings in life do require a certain amout of work, and i think he is worth the effort. 3.) brad davis (18) is a very interesting person. i have not figured out what the deal is, but i do like hanging out with him and i think that he has turned into a fine specimen. he has a tattoo, and long hair and a mystery that intrigues me. hopefully when he goes to college he will not turn into a tramp as he has full capability of doing. 4.) sean smith (19) and I bonded at camp quite a bit. He is fun and has restored my faith in the "nice guy". I felt as though it was effortless to be around him and we had a lot we could talk about. He is just a really great guy and I hope we will keep getting to know eachother this school year. 5.) Anne Lakies (20) is my girl and will be forever, we have been through a lot together and this summer's drama was no exception. she chews em up and spits em out, but i love her anyway. 6.) Eric Wo. (19) was her latest victim but because of her ( i suppose) he and I became closer this summer. At first it was because they would use me as an excuse to hang out without it being a "date" but then they would hang out to get the dirt on the other one, then when everything went to hell ( after some choice words spoken by a beligerent me) they hung out with me to forget the other. i guess the old alicia would have been pissed and for a while i was until i realized what I got out of it: 2 stronger friendships. Eric Wo. is such and amazing person and I feel soooo lucky that i know him. I know i went off on abou t a thousand tangents and that no one but me will probably read the whole thing. I guess the most important thing to get out of this is; without my friends i would be nothing. So thanks to everyone who helps me get through the day. I love you. goodbye |
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michellestar | 08-18-05 12:14pm I read it. I'm glad you have good friends. :) |
brutisimo | Re:, 08-18-05 10:28pm i am glad you are one of them |
fanelia | 08-20-05 10:40pm "i guess the best tings in life do require a certain amout of work"
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