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xxbabiigurlxx (profile) wrote,
on 8-19-2005 at 10:42pm
Current mood: pissed the fuck off
i hear two storys && parts of both seem to be true
i dont know who to believe && or trust
you both have your reasons to lie
&& tell me what you want

im not a fucking rag doll
&& yes i have feelings

tell the fucking truth
to whomever your talking to && what its about
&& everything will be how it should be

i dont want to hurt && i dont want to cry
anymore

&& most of all i want to know what to do with myself

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to let go isnt to forget, not think about, or ignore it. it doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isnt winning and it isnt losing. it's not about pride and it's not about how you appear. it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughs, and it doesnt leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. it's not giving up or giving in. to let go is to cherish memories but to overcome and move on. it is having an open mind and confidence in the future. letting go is accepting. it is learning and experiencing and growing up. to let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, cry and grow. it's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will gain. letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up. to let go is to open a door, clear a path and set yourself free

i guess it`ll never happen for me then
JEESUS

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Anonymous

08-19-05 11:52pm

AShley, you mean the world to me. and i know exactly who you are the most beuatiful, amazing sweet wonderful girl ever and you dont deserve to be uunhappy you should have all the joy in the world.. liek i said i really liked you and i really would give anythign to be with you not only to be with you but just to hear your problems and try to make you happier. i would give anything to see you happy you truly are the most amazing person i have ever met. You mean the world to me and i care for you so much i just wnat you to know that i really want to see you happy and maybe that if one person doesn't care about you as much as you wnat them to there is someone out there that cares about you just as much as you wnat them to. I really do like you ever snice we were sitting and passing little notes to each other in class.. wow i still remember all the things you said to me lol and all the thigns we talked about .. i remmeber smiling at in class looking forward to comming so i could see you!! =] you mean the world to me. Im very sorry.
im sure you know who this is.
Your friend.

PS someone reads your journal . =] ME!
PSS I would give anything.... anything ashley... anything.

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innocence

08-20-05 2:33pm

ashh . . im sorry you're going through it, but your edit couldnt have been said better . . that is what letting go is, but when the pain of holding on is greater then the pain of letting go . . its time to let go. you know whats best for you, nobody else does.

as ive always said, you are such an amazing and incredible person, and you deserve somebody who realizes that. do what you want to do, but please go easy on yourself, try to be as happy as possible and cherish what you had with him and what you have now - you have mee and family and friends who love you.

good things and bad things will happen, learn a lesson, and know not to make the same mistake twice. everything happens for a reason, but heres another thing that is also true . . never give up if you still wanna try. never wipe the tears if you still wanna cry. never settle for the answer if you still wanna know. never say you dont love him if you cant let him go -- having hope is good, just try to enjoy your life as best as you can, and have him want to come back to you, because he doesnt know what he's missing.

ashley eden, you are truly an amazing person and i love you so much. you may not know it, but you've helped me through so much bullshit . . i only hope i can do the same for you. you mean so much to me and i really wish for your happiness. please try to keep a smile on your face, you're a beautiful young woman and you deserve to be happy. i will always be here for you, dont ever forget that.

i love you

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xxbabiigurlxx

Re:, 08-22-05 9:47pm

ahhh shucks, i know ♥

i do appriciate everything you have ever said && done for me
&& i know you know that. =]

i do - did - have hope . . but its slowing dying .
[[ shrugs ]] i guess people make mistakes && sometimes you have to live with them . .

i love you too daniellie [[ heh ]] i truley do. its good to know i have helped you and there shouldnt be any question of you helping me . . you have . . you surley have .

i love you too !!♥

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innocence

Re: Re:, 08-23-05 12:41pm

i know you appreciate it lol, because i appreciate everything you do for me too.

i know what you mean about hope, def experiencing some dying of hope right now.. its just so hard to get rid of hope completely . . its like no matter what i do theres always hope in the back of my mind

im so glad i have you in my life ash, i truly am. . it was so weird the way we started talking but idc im so happy we did. a very good friendship came out of it. keep your head up, you're much to pretty to cry

♥ love you

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