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joslyn_julia (profile) wrote,
on 9-10-2005 at 3:53pm
Current mood: useless
Music: Laura Love- Punctured and hissing
mike and i are fighting. i have cried for at least 10 minutes everyday since wednesday, at least. i feel like a stupid child and like mike is some hardened old man. everything between us is so different now. since i got to school it feels as though i am just a nuisance. that is why i cried today. i don't think i am even going to see him before christmas. the thought kills me. it makes me cry everytime i think about it. and there isn't a damn thing i can do. i feel like he wants me to just go away and the thought of us being apart just kills.

it's worse when everyone around me is going home to see their boyfriends and their families. i thought i could handle this. why is it different? it isn't worth my while to go home, but i don't have anything to keep me here. and there isn't anywhere to go either. maybe it's just because i haven't found any friends but it just feels like high school. i hated high school. i am sick of being alone. i am sick of feeling like nobody wants me around.
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upchuck

09-11-05 1:17am

What to keep Joslin around school?

Oh yeah, get me hooked up with some girls there. That would work.

But hey, anyway. Some of the feelings that you're going through are normal. You just have to remember that now you're out of your parent's control. You CAN do anything you want. Doesn't mean you will, but you can. And just because things are the way they are between you and Mike doesn't mean you can't enjoy yourself. If your fighting, screw him and go out and have fun. If you're not, then still go out and have fun with people. Just remember the old saying: "If you can't have the one you want, want the one you have."

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