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| spud (profile) wrote, on 9-27-2005 at 10:28pm | |
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so. i have a bunch and oodles and lots of homework to do. and i really fucking need groceries. and i have about five dollaz. so, i figure it would be nice to see mom and have her buy me stuff. 5 hours later i'm just really pissed off. and suddenly food doesn't seem worth it. not to mention i didn't get jack shit done on the homework front. i'm going to have to rock the German until midnight. then crash hard. and just wing my fucking communications paper last minute. and when i get out of COM, i guess i'm meeting up with adam so he can tow my car over to a shop that bruce frequents so they can finish the mess that i started. because i'm obviously incapable. i guess i'm just too slow and stupid to work on cars. who'da thunk, right? and i got a fucking 84% on friday's essay. which, coming from that teacher, means that it was a good paper. just not a standout in the awesomeness dept. whatev. he just doesn't seem to be on my wavelength. but still a cool guy. he likes suck ups. and i've never been a suck up. and i'm not sure i'm willing to become one for a single letter grade. maybe my tune will change. i'm just pissed at myself for getting into this mess. but now that i'm here, i have to get out. i'm tired of this constant feeling that i'm doing something horribly wrong, that everyone else naturally seems to just GET. Cock fuck. you know what i want. i want to fall asleep right now. get 11 hours of gorgeous sleep, full of wonderful dreams, and when i wake up, have jackie be laying there next to me. and then i can make her breakfast. and we could go for a walk after breakfast. and then go see some sort of concert or play or something. then we could race go-carts. then we would go swimming and relax on the beach. followed by a walk through the woods. then a bonfire, with lots of friends. then back to bed, so we could watch a movie and fall asleep in each other's arms. and will even ONE of those things happen? no. and i need to move practice with rob to friday. thursday is the newton research meeting. and i'm still looking to get more involved on campus. an irrefutably moronic pursuit, given my current condition. but then again, when haven't i been a moron? i heard the snare line again tonight... :-( |
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sugarjackj | 09-28-05 10:39am Reading your journal really does not make me happy.
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spud | Re:, 09-28-05 9:36pm you do help.
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