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| Upchuck (profile) wrote, on 10-10-2005 at 10:03pm | |
| I'm just struggling with these questions. Is it possibly to be just? Is it alright to sin and still feel on the moral high ground? Do even corrupt individuals have it in their hearts for acts of kindness? I don't know the answer to any of this. I do know that we're all flawed. All lost in our own way. But what to do about it, I don't know. What is the meaning of learning about high minded ideals, about process and procedure, if it does nothing to help the world? If it doesn't not help our fellow souls. Why spend our time dwelling on the things we can't do, the things we can't make right, instead of the things we can? I guess these are deep probing questions. Something that I want to know and feel from my heart and from my soul. Somedays I feel like an abject failure, because of the things I haven't been able to accomplish. The people that I have failed to help, the life that I have failed to lead, and the things I didn't even try at haunt on those days. But today was different. Today I feel a supreme confidence that I can do anything I set my mind to. But what to det my mind to. It feels like it's such power that it shouldn't be wasted. I could do anything, anything at all. But I'm still lost. Still lost in the desert, waiting to be led into the promised land. The place where I will be able to see my children grow. That's where I want to go. And if now, this is about confidence, then I have supreme confidence. I have supreme confidence that He will lead me there, and when I arrive, when we arrive, it will be us as a complete people who will have their heads held high. And we will look at one another and be able to express that which will save us all. Love. |
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justplainolemica | Hey baby!, 10-11-05 2:17pm Ya can't be upset with yourself for not leading the perfect life. Look how many people are on the planet and think about all the people that used to be here. Then remember that only one person has lead the perfect life. The odds are stacked against ya babe. And we learn about the other things to learn what we are to strive for. We arent gonna make it, but so long as thats where we're aiming we're ok. At least thats my thought on the subject. |