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liz (profile) wrote,
on 10-12-2005 at 12:11am
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why is this happening.
im so fucking fucked up.
i fucking love you, but please please fucking please try to understand me,
this could take months, a massive amount of time.

Here is the best explanation that i can come up with.

I am always meeting guys and wondering what if?
It has nothing to do with you, it is never that i dont love you, it is that i am 18 years old and worried about never experiencing my life to the fullest and no that does not mean fucking interesting people.
The only way i can do that is to break from you.
It we are meant to be we are meant to be, it will happen, as for right now, step back, get over me and move on.
because until i am completely content and absolutely sure that you are the best person for me then i am not willing to jump back into that relationship.

Im sorry to put it all so bluntly but right now i need to be selfish and make sure that everything is right.
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pjlmaster

10-12-05 12:28am

lol...you know what we need?

PSYCHIATRISTS!!! (spelling is way wrong but you get the idea)

and i dont mean together if that wasnt clear, i think that would help us both cope way better





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liz

Re:, 10-12-05 12:32am

that might be lol if it werent so fucking true.
did that post help?
as far as understanding goes?


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pjlmaster

Re: Re:, 10-12-05 12:52am

its not the lack of understanding so much as the fear of not getting back together, i just have to realize that you cant give me an answer on that now

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anachronism

10-12-05 6:35am

I think what you're doing is smart.
You have to take time to be apart sometimes just to see if you can be okay. If you don't you will regret it.
I know you still love him, and that's why you're doing it.

If you're with another guy and you're having a good time, he kisses good, he's funny, etc. and PJ is still in the back of your mind something's wrong.

If you like someone else, but you can live without them and you can't live without PJ that's when you know.

Good luck, follow your heart.


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liz

Re:, 10-12-05 10:05am

thanks, im glad you understand, you always did.

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