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| moonshinehommie (profile) wrote, on 10-28-2005 at 11:15pm | |
| Subject: im so alone |
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sigh I feel as if I never get to see him anymore. work is just killing us lately what with him never having a day and with me pretty much the same...it's starting to wear on me. I wish I had a friend. Kate G is just avoiding me and so is melissa I don't know who else I have...Jessa I love you but it's different now it's like I cant really talk to you about what is going on...you have your new life and I feel really childish around you now that your married and have a kid to take care of...But there is always some hope...I actually talked to Briana who was my bestest friend for years but in high school about our junior year we kind of fell apart and went our seperate ways. She called me today and when we started talking it was as if nothing had ever changed it was nice to feel like someone other than the man in my bed actually wanted to hear what I had to say. I found out that she only lives like a block away from me so she is going to call me sometime this weekend to hang out.....hopefully I am not working. I forgot my keys in his car today and since today is friday and it is only the second friday in about three years that I had off I have been sitting at home for like 12 hours just doing absolutly nothing...well I am alternating between the internet the new book I am reading and the tv but now that it is 11:30 I am bored as hell with all of them. So what to do?? I know that when he gets home he is going to be to tired to want to do anything and I cant help but think to myself that this is the one day that I will regret for a long time. I mean I just wasted 12 hours of my life doing absolutly nothing, if I were to die tommorow I would have nothing to show for it but this extremly long journal entry that probably nobody will ready....BLAH!!!! Somday I hope God hits me with a lightning bolt that wakes me up and finally helps me realize what it is that I want to do with my damn life because I got to tell this howies thing is getting really old. I am like the bitch for every store. All I do is run around to a different store like once a month get there store running the way it should again let them teach a new asst. manager how to do everything and then poof! I am gone to a different store. it sucks. I want one store I don't want to be moved around anymore...I want my own store...I talked to Jerry about it and he actually said to me. "Kadie, I wouldn't worry about I have a place for you and I think that you will like you just have to be patient a little while longer while I set it up," what the fuck does that mean???? sometimes I hate Jerry....but he's so nice to look at!!!! well my rant is finally over I made myself laugh....thanks guys |
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jessa_lynne | 10-29-05 11:44am |
jessa_lynne | 10-29-05 11:47am Jessa I love you but it's different now it's like I cant really talk to you about what is going on...you have your new life and I feel really childish around you now that your married and have a kid to take care of
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