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| .j.e.s.s. (profile) wrote, on 11-18-2005 at 11:45am | |
| Subject: where did i go wrong? i lost a friend |
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I really want to do something. I want to go on a missions trip or something. Feel worthy and maybe useful. I've been thinking about going out of state but you know. Things hold me back of course even though we have the resources so it's completely stupid, really. I could do it I guess just as easily as I'm doing what I plan to be doing... if that makes sense. But... there would be too many complications. Where would it leave us? I don't know, and so I will probably never do it. Is that holding me back? I don't know. Not really I guess. Because it's also my door to absolutely everything. I wouldn't even be if it weren't for it. So I guess I can't say it's holding me back . That wouldn't make any sense. How many times are you going to redo it? Kind of ridiculous. I never knew people who had babies could afford such expensive clothing for themselves. Is that how you do it? Gawd. I miss Roman like, really really badly. I haven't seen him for too long. Like a week. Almost. Really you're my strength babe. I'm going to see him early tomorrow. And then of course the day has to be brought down by work at 5. That's so stupid. I've worked every single day this week. Tired. Is what I am. Just tired. And then I have to work tonight of course at 5. We probably won't be busy at all and when you're a waitress, that really sucks. Getting paid $2.65.... come on. That's so stupid. I think I'll just leave if it's dead because it just is so pointless. And oh, I work Sunday as well. At 4. So I have worked every day for a week. What a glorious week. When will something new come? I need.. not change but solutions. I hate this situation. I hate it. I'm glad I'm fast typer. HA. No love, jess. |
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JordanMackenzie7 | 11-18-05 11:18pm Doesn't it always seem like when it rains it has to pour? Or in our case (being that we're in Michigan) SNOW = BLIZZARD!
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