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spud (profile) wrote,
on 12-10-2005 at 4:39pm
Subject: due to popular complaint about my previous ambiguity...

WARNING: SAPPY ROMANCE BULLSHIT (please stop reading if you don't wish to hear my current situation. i won't be offended, honest.)

there's this girl that lives in my dorm. her name is katie. i like katie... she's funny and smart and cute and all that good stuff. upon logical discussion of the situation... i was "friended" by katie... friended being the opposite of "girlfriended". which from a logical standpoint, makes sense. it would be silly to get in a serious relationship.

so, my brain is hunky dory. but the situation gives rise to some very intense, internal, emotional ruckus. pushing me a little closer to insanity than i already was to begin with (scary eh?).

and so, i just like hanging out with katie, which we did last night (but not alone). i just have a hard time coping with the feelings generally associated with hanging out with katie... or rather, once we're done hanging out, and i realize i have to go back to my bed and sleep and be lonely like.

to add to the awkwardness, last night hunter was trying to convince me i need to hook up with his ex-girlfriends twin sister. now, i'm not saying that's necessarily a bad idea. but emotionaly complex... especially when katie is sitting right there, asking me what i think.

so, obviously something needs to happen to me to make me stop liking katie like this, or to push katie and i together... which just doesn't make sense to do. and so, honestly, i really want to stop liking katie. but try as i might, it's not working.

so that's where we sit. hopefully this clears things up some, for those interested parties. and anyone who's not interested... then just ignore me already.
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andy

12-10-05 5:12pm

Dude.. She doesn't like being naked. You can't like a girl that doesn't like being naked..

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spud

Re:, 12-10-05 5:18pm

why the hell not? maybe i don't want a naked girlfriend. maybe i want a fully clothed girlfriend that's really fun and smart and cute. without clothes (for the most part) they're generally not cute anymore.

i think what you mean for me to find is a "hot girlfriend", which i don't want.

i want a cute one. and that's the whole thing. if there's no nakedness involved, then what's the point of being a girlfriend? we might as well just stay friends and enjoy our time together as such. i just have a certain amount of trouble with that, for some reason.

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Anonymous

Re:, 01-21-06 1:05pm

You don't like girls anyway. Rar!

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andy

Re: Re:, 01-21-06 1:09pm

You got me. I'm gay.

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andy

Re: Re:, 01-21-06 1:11pm

And I also know you're from GVSU. So you're probably either Chris, Katie, or Ellen.

OrgName: Grand Valley State University
OrgID: GVSU
Address: 207 Manitou Hall
City: Allendale
StateProv: MI
PostalCode: 49401
Country: US

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egotrip

12-10-05 9:27pm

You can't make yourself not like somebody. It's just impossible. The only thing I can suggest is that you tell her everything, even if you feel awkward or uncomfortable about it. And if she feels the same way about you, perhaps you could go further in your relationship with her. If you don't try, you'll never know.

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spud

Re:, 12-11-05 7:31pm

no, we already talked. and we agreed that a serious relationship is inadvisable. but like you said, i can't just stop liking her either.

it's not like i'm afraid to ask her out or anything. hell, i went to a dance with her last night. it's just these contradicting emotions.

i'll just wait it out, come what may.

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sugarjackj

12-11-05 11:29am

I think most guys dive head first into the "relationship" thing when they think they like someone.

Girls are not always looking for a relationship. Most of the time they are not. It is just nice having a guy friend to talk to and hang out with. (also why its so hard for boyfriends to let go of the "guy friend" thing)

Guys for some reason feel special when girls want to "hang out" so then guys think its love, they have a crush on the girl because she wants to hang out. They think its more when actualy all girls really want to do is, really, hang out. Thats all.

so these are my thoughts.
as a girl, having let down guys, because they thought there was more.

Whats your rush to fall in love?
Dont take it to hard.

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spud

Re:, 12-11-05 7:35pm

i have a hard time with the whole 'guy friends' thing because katie fucked hers. i just have to realize that not everyone is like her.

the relationship automatically exists, whether we were looking for it or not. it existed before you and i even broke up. but at that time, as like now, it was just a friendly relationship, as opposed to a seriously romantic one.

i'm not in a rush to fall in love. fuck, i don't even know what love is. i'm not about to go looking for it. i'm just saying i have feelings that i'm having difficulty coping with at the moment.

everything you say makes perfect sense from a logical standpoint. which is what was agreed upon. however, my feelings are rarely logical, and this is no exception. and no amount of logic is going to change them. only a change in the situation can change my feelings. and i'm staring a katie-free christmas break smack-dab in the face, so maybe that will change something.

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