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mudpiegrl (profile) wrote,
on 12-16-2005 at 1:34pm
now i have an immense amount of shame. i want to hide. i want to die. why did i tell anyone? i know. because i wanted to change my image. i knew that before. i knew that and i told people. i guess all i wanted in the first place was to be told that i should have no doubts, btu the only person who could convince me didnt. i wish he had. i wish he loved me, too. now, ive hurt myself and everyone around me. how dumb, how perfectly stupid i am. that doesnt make anything better. i see how the cycle perpetuates. i wont do it again though.

what do i want? why does everything feel so wrong? why do i ask so many questions? why does it hurt that everyone is angry at me...why?
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suzume

12-18-05 3:24pm

Hey...I don't know you but I visited your journal because one of your interests was Latin.

You know...it might make me look shitty to say that ...Yeah.. 'Things will be alright'..
If it's not okay, well then...it's not the end, yet.
I don't really know what's up since I'm visiting, but if you'd like, I'd love to be your friend-in fact, I'll add you to my friends list now.

It takes more than just ourselves to see what's good about ourselves...It takes just one more person to be able to smile about the world. It may not always be the person we want who tells us the things we want to hear, but isn't it great that some stranger or at least someone can see something special in us?

I'm a stranger, yeah...But I can already see tons of good things about you. You like Latin, for one. I think Latin is great, it's helping me get a little heads up in choosing a college. You wanted to change your image... Wanting more from yourself is never a bad thing, unless you want more bad qualities. Just know that you are who you are, and there is absolutely nobody in the world who can copy you. Live in joy of your individuality...There can only be one you, and blessed are those who know it.

You only hurt the people around you if you keep swimming in your doubts. Step up to the world...let the world know who you are, not what your fears are.

Hope to hear from you soon.
-Sharu

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