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| whispers (profile) wrote, on 12-28-2005 at 5:15am | |
| Current mood: Tired Music: Howie Day - Collide. Subject: I hate this. |
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| I'm so incredibly tired, I just can't sleep. Why not? I've realized that I might be a little insane. Not like crazy, but retarded. The thoughts going through my head are ones that I haven't had so long, and it felt good to not think about it for a while. Now, I can't stop. What's with that? I've been tired for a few hours, I layed in my bed for a few hours. I played solitare on my iPod for a little, then I just layed there some more. I can't stop thinking about him. It's not right, and I don't.. want to anymore. Do I? I told him some things, kinda mean things, but true. Something I never really thought I'd say, but after I said it, I wish I didn't. I'm afraid to lose him, even though he was lost before and I didn't care. Well, not lost, just.. I've been crying a lot, and it's scaring me. I feel like crying right now actually. I just hope this comes and goes before March. I had a day off. That was probably the best feeling thing in the world. I actually did things too. Granted, I didn't do anything I really should have, but I got some things done, sort of. I like having a day off. Maybe I will take Lee up on that twice a week offer. I believe these earphones are making my ears bigger. The things are huge, and my ears kind of hurt. Starting right now, I'm done splurging. Time to start saving. 500 dollars for spending money (since I payed all my debts off with my grandpa's money), and the rest is going to be saved for a laptop. I don't think I can get enough, but it never hurt to try. Even if I don't have the money by March, I'll have that much more money to put towards one after I get back. I always tend to update this thing and make the entries longer than what anybody wants to read, but oh well right? I guess if you care, then you'll read. Otherwise, you'll bypass it and just wait for shorter entries. I should try to sleep now. Howie Day is kinda putting me to sleep. Goodnight.. or morning. However you plan on reading it. Even the best fall down sometimes.. |
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allisonwonderland | 12-28-05 12:26pm i care. and read it all! i promise. I hope you're okay dahling. really i do. if you need to talk, call me, seriously.
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whispers | Re:, 12-28-05 6:56pm i'll be alright, thanks hun :) |
blondiegirl05 | 12-28-05 12:33pm your layout is so cute! how do you get your subjects to be like that, and what font are you using?
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whispers | Re:, 12-28-05 6:57pm i use the 'strong' code instead of just leaving it the way it is :) |