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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 1-19-2006 at 5:59pm | |
| Current mood: crushed |
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| yeah, bad thoughts are running through my head. they all make me wish i was dead. so sometime soon i'll crawl into my bed. and try to forget what all the songs said. yes, i feel so tired. maybe that's why this is hurting me so... so, uh, okay. who cares. i love you, too. i miss you aswell. acutally i don't care, you bitch. but we love eachother. i just feel so unimportant and horrible because i've been so busy with existing... i don't want to do this anymore, i don't want to tear myself apart like this anymore... i don't want to constantly question if i'm good enough, if i'm the problem, if it's all my fault that i feel like the last sentences are being written and soon the words "the end" with a heart and a cross is coming soon... i just want to go and sit on the bathroom floor, cry in my bed and hide in the corner and never ever have to talk to anyone ever again because it's a constant battle for me... i'll NEVER be GOOD enough... and it kills me. so you know what... if i'm not good enough, who cares? i'll die someday... and i'll be good enough then because everyone has something nice to say about a dead person... i'm sorry. the weight of my heart is crushing me. and it's really hard to ever believe that fireflies existed and that owls are really that cute. i can't see the moon from behind this blood-soaked clouds and rosy-fingered dawn is dead. 'it happens everytime when i open my eyes...' love, amelia |
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lillypad | 01-19-06 9:07pm love you.
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rorin | 01-19-06 9:33pm of me? |
godessalthena | Re:, 01-20-06 12:38am nope, not you |
rorin | Re: Re:, 01-20-06 1:17am Okay. <3 |
oceanchild | 01-19-06 10:55pm Good enough for what? I've never thought you substandard. I love you. |