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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 1-28-2006 at 6:40am | |
| Current mood: exhausted |
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| OMG it's brookelynn's birthday!! Happy birthday my Brookelynn! I love you and it's so wonderful that you're 18!!! and now for crap: right now, i hate falling in love. i hate how i don't know what to do and when i think i'm doing the right thing it feels so utterly wrong. i hate how i've never done anything like this before and how i have no one to turn to because no one i want to ask has experienced this. i hate how i love him so much but i feel like there isn't that future there for me. i hate how all i want is to put all my faith into him and know that everything will work out... i hate how i half think that's not going to work. i hate being in love right now... who knew such a great feeling could cause so much unwanted pain? i'm so fucking emotional right now. i think i got four hours last night. i finally fell asleep at oneish... woke up at three and couldn't sleep til four then i got up at six... i couldn't look at my ceiling without crying. god! everything sucks. 'when i do good, i feel good; when i do bad, i feel bad, and that is my religion...' love, a wreck of a girl |
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lillypad | 01-28-06 10:19am i'll see you tonight, sweetheart, we can do that thing we're gonna do and talk some more if you want.
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godessalthena | Re:, 01-28-06 10:28am yay. i'll see you then, brooke. loves. |
rorin | 01-28-06 2:08pm If it's a matter of him moving away... you could talk to my parents. My mom was in love with dad in college and he moved back to Spokane to work (they were in Guelph University in Ontario)... Mom was about to go to England before she met him-the one place she'd always wanted to go. But she didn't, because she fell in love. She graduated early from college just to move to Spokane with Dad... Then he proposed while she was standing on a street corner here (the one by Hoffman's)... yeah...
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