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pjlmaster (profile) wrote,
on 2-22-2006 at 11:15am
well, things are going over like a lead baloon, jade doesnt seem to give two shits that im here anymore, its really great i swear. i clean up the house every day before she gets home from work, dishes, making the bed, sometimes dinner, when she actually tells me what she wants me to make. then she gets home, then just sits down to play WoW, talking to like 5 other people in the same way that she talked to me before we started talking about seeing each other in real life. im trying not to be jealous, after all, she was only talking to them, but then i see some guy saying some lewd things to her ina whisper...that was too much for me... then a couple days later she goes into her own channel w/ that person on vent, understandable, they are questing together and such, no biggie, but then once he has to log she goes AFK and calls him (i assume its him) on the phone. all the while im just sitting here...wondering what the fuck i did so wrong, what made her decide im not worth anything more then a glance and a hello when she gets home. obviously i missed it, and ive been over everything like a million times already now, and i dont see anything. she has a problem w/ my being jealous, and ive told her im working on it, but i dont see her helping me to work on it at all. OH MUTHER FUCKING WELL, FUCK THIS, FUCKING WASTE FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS...well...at least the flight was fun, and i got this awesome keyboard...to make matters worse, another girl told me that she liked me before i left, one who i liked too...but i ended up tottaly blowing her off for this!!! what the fuck is wrong w/ me????
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liz

02-22-06 2:42pm

i refuse to say that everyone but you saw this coming.
how subtle am I right?
but no Im sorry that it is happening.
when you come home talk to this other girl. tell her you like her and that you want to make it work. unless she is an internet girl because that is bad news.
at least you got to see canada.
and ride a plane for the first time.
it was an experience you did it and now you know.
good for you.
you know im here.
let me know if you need something and I hope things get better.
btw who is this girl you speak of and when are you coming home?


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pjlmaster

Re:, 02-22-06 3:02pm

im coming home on the 7th, and its hard to believe that my whole life has been really fucked up becuase of my being ashamed/afraid to tell you something...

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pjlmaster

Re: Re:, 02-22-06 3:02pm

and im talking to the girl i like right now actually

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valoth

02-22-06 5:56pm

Well hey thats life. Seems to happen to alot of people lately. Maybe if nothing else you can keep jade as a good friend to flirt with now n then. I dunno.

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