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| rayray (profile) wrote, on 2-27-2006 at 8:48am | |
| I am so sick and tired of everyone not liking who I date. It doesnt matter who it is, no one likes him. You all find something wrong with him. You say I'm wasting my time. You say I can do better. That he's wrong for me. Well guess what, it's my life, and I will date who I please. I don't need permission from any of you. None of you know the whole story with Mike. And if you haven't met him, your opinion of him means nothing to me. Yeah, he broke up with me and was a dick when he broke up with me. However, he had good reasoning. You would have done the same thing. But things are better now. We aren't back together. And we haven't completely worked through our problems, but we're getting there. What we are trying to get passed isn't easy. I will be surprised if we get back together. The story: I got drunk and I did cheat on him. I tried to deny it, because I didn't want to hurt him. But I was hurting him more by denying it. "I was drunk" isn't a good excuse. It's not an excuse at all. But it's all I've got. I don't know why I did what I did. After drinking a 5th of Captain Morgan to myself, I shouldn't remember anything. I regret it. But there is nothing I can do to change it. I am ashamed of myself. I always said I would never cheat on someone because I know what it feels like to be cheated on. If there's someone you should dislike, it should be me. Not him. He hasn't done anything wrong. I'm lucky he's even talking to me. I'm lucky that we have the relationship we do right now. I don't deserve it. If he forgives me, I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything, except his hatred. But he doesn't hate me, and I don't understand it. |
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atman | The loop is over there, and I am over here, 02-27-06 11:19am As I stand watching the loop, I only wish that I could be involved and know what is going on.
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Defiant | 02-27-06 2:15pm The way it is is, you pay for your own place and bills, work your own job, own your own car, so people can kiss your own ass for not liking who you date. |
keltoesx | 02-27-06 3:18pm at least youre one of the few who can admit you did something wrong and own up to it and be mature about it...a LOT of people i know wouldnt have even though of doing what youre doing now...this is cheesy but im proud of you and yeah what you did was shitty but it looks like this guy might really like you and thats all that matters and if people dont like him, well they can go fuck themselves because its your choice and if theyre your friends then they should voice concerns but once theyve said it to you, then they should leave it at that and be happy for you. but it sounds like they have no reason to not like this guy... |
rayray | Re:, 02-27-06 5:06pm Some just don't understand that I have finally found someone that I love. Yes, he has his flaws, but who doesn't. He's not perfect, nor am I. I haven't ever gotten those 'butterflies' before and I finally got them with Mike. I have finally found the one person that I don't get sick of seeing. The one person that I can see every single day, and not get annoyed with. He makes me laugh. He is always there. He listens. We have fun.
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keltoesx | Re: Re:, 02-27-06 6:30pm Well, I know what you're going through...people just hate to see other people so happy when they're not. And it's sad really. But I know exactly how you feel about the 'butterflies' thing...I finally got those with my current boyfriend and I had never felt that before and I know it's cheesy but I think it's a sign...'cause if you look at it logically, neither of has had that before and neither of us were truly happy with our previous boyfriends and now we are and well things are going good...and I really, really hope things only get better for you two 'cause from what I read, I think there is something there. And hey, you deserve to have someone proud of you, even if it is little ole me...saying what you said online...that takes guts! |
rayray | Re: Re: Re:, 02-28-06 7:57am Everyone at work was surprised that I clarified why he broke up with me. When he first broke up with me, I told them that he was accusing me of something that never happened. And then I finally couldn't deal with it anymore, and I told him, and I told everyone at work. Because a lot of people were giving him the third degree for being so harsh to me. And then they understood.
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keltoesx | Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-28-06 2:13pm awwe! thats so cute! |
rayray | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-28-06 3:41pm heh this morning about 10 he showed up with donuts.. he said he didn't feel good and he knew i'd take care of him.. he just left a little bit ago to go to his daughters basketball game. he said he'd be back later with dinner.. woohu! |
spud | 02-27-06 5:45pm knowing nothing about the situation, my input would simply be, ignore what other people tell you to think and feel and believe. you need to stop and take a long hard look at things and focus on the TRUTH. which is an elusive bastard, to say the least. and it doesn't help with a bunch of other people trying to bend it for you.
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