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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 3-14-2006 at 8:12pm | |
| Current mood: confused Music: AMV Hell |
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| I'm tired of living for others... I want to live for myself... To make myself happy without feeling guilty about it... But I do feel guilty and sad and horrible and bitchy... But at the same time I feel happy and warm, like I used to... That feeling I missed... Is it really wrong to seek happiness? I mean, it's horrible if you step all over people and murder their lives just to be happy, but I don't feel like that's what I'm doing... I'm just... Trying to move on and be happy... And that's important... But friends are important, too... Without them, where would I be right now..? Dead. Or very, very unhappy. So I just don't know anymore... On one hand I know I'm a terrible friend because... I suck and really don't... I don't know I'm just a bad person/friend/whatever. On the other hand, I feel happy and I know that I'm a good person... At least I am some of the time... I don't know... I just... Don't want to feel guilty for trying to be happy. And I don't want to hate myself anymore... 'did you ever know that you're my hero..?' love, amelia |
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lillypad | 03-15-06 12:03am you think you're confused....
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oceanchild | 03-15-06 2:46am I've been feeling exactly this way today. |