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| jacqui-chan (profile) wrote, on 3-18-2006 at 7:28pm | |
| Current mood: crappy Subject: Messed up |
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| I screwed everything up. I think I've caused about every problem for myself that's possible to cause. I did something stupid, then told JD about it, and now he's mad at me. He said he doesn't even want to look at me. He doesn't believe that I'm sorry, or that I love him. Even though he knows very well that I've never stopped. I don't know what to do. He refuses to see me and now he's trying to get out of going to church with me. That's all I asked for for my Birthday, from him at least. I just wanted him at church with me, that was always my favorite time to spend with him. I don't know why, we just connected more there. I don't know what to do at all. I love him, I really really do. And now he'll barely speak to me. He figured out how stupid he'd been before. We kissed the other day and he had realized just how much he wasn't over me. And last night he punched Metzger in the stomach for saying bad stuff about me. But I messed it up. How do I always manage that anymore? Because I don't think, that's how. Ugh, I'm so stupid sometimes. I feel like such an idiot, such a jerk. Wow, I suck. That's for sure. This time it's my turn to be the jerk I guess. Anyway, I'm out. I'll c ya' Monday. XOXO, Jay |
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softballchic | 03-19-06 4:18pm Awww Jekyll, I'm sorry your having a crappy weekend. Don't be sad, it's our birthday!!!! Sorry I didn't show up for church today (I really have no excuse) but I have your birthday present for you for tomorrow and I think/hope you'll like it. |