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teenybeany (profile) wrote,
on 3-24-2006 at 5:04pm
Current mood: good
Subject: Dedicated to:
So, spring break has officially started.

Blanche Elisa and Francesca are all already gone. Julian is gone too. Today is Francesca's birthday. Jenni is gone too. People are leaving, one by one, oh so quickly. I feel so in peace right now. Probably because the three people I see every second of the day are not around. If I'm not with one, I'm with another, and if I'm not with that one, I'm with the other. And if I'm not with any of those three... Julian is in my room talking my ear off about what? i don't know because i never listen. Also, I finally locked my door. My door hasn't been locked for maybe 3 months now (because Blanche lost her key and refuses to buy another one). It feels way too good to be lying on my bed in such peace. No one can barge in. I can't here anyone next door. There is no Julian in my ear.

I was so excited for spring break. For just this. Being alone. But when it came to actually realizing that no one is going to be around, I got so lonely. I wanted to be alone.. not feel alone. I realized this last night at Francesca's birthday day when she asked, who's leaving tomorrow? And everyone except me and one other raised their hands. It was a really sad feeling. I really have to suck it up and do my chess set. Which is why I'm here.

I was supposed to go home for a few days.. but I might go home for... a few days and then some... I'm going home on Sunday and I'm supposed to come back Wednesday. I may get stuck in my state of mind and stay till Sunday... Tee hee. Well, I don't know. We'll see I guess, right?

Yesterday we went to Urban to get Franskeezy a present. I got her a flask, and myself a cute tank top. I also stole some gold hoops.

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lexish

03-25-06 12:27pm

you stole!?!

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