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| m&ms487 (profile) wrote, on 4-18-2006 at 8:08pm | |
| It occured to me yesterday that everyone I know is painfully normal. There is nothing special about any of us. There are one hundred other people out there with the exact same talents and skills as any one of us. What makes us think we are anything to be proud of? The only thing that sets us apart are our experiences, but hell, who cares about experiences if you can't fit them into a concise paragraph along with your hopes and dreams and plan of the future? I found out a few weeks ago that I was accepted into the Grand Valley State University School of Music to study for a degree in Music (performance) or Music Education. It appears I have everything figured out. It would be wonderful if I really did. Today was a horrible day. I don't know exactly why. It was just the feeling I had about it. Everything seemed so real, so acute, so harsh. It's hard to explain. It seems like the good days float by with a cloud of superficiality, nothing really grabs hold so much as just grazes by. It's like a bullet being shot that whizzes about your head. You realized it would hurt if you were struck, it might even be fatal, but because it didn't strike, it's almost not real. You are left with no physical reminder of it's presence. It can be soon forgotten, there was no true impact on your life. Being struck with that bullet is a different story. You must live with the pain and reminder of it every day. It digs into your body, as much as into your soul. It's there, it's real. That's what today seemed like. Real. |
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tabletop | 04-19-06 10:22am Gunnie is abnormal, he's self employed and making a six figure income at the age of like 23.
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spinder | 04-20-06 5:58pm I think we need to look at what we perceive as "Normal" before we start comparing ourselves and others too it.
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skippi16 | 04-21-06 2:42pm i get you michelle! i think im different but yet, i am the same as hundreds of band geek clarinet loving losers! |