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godessalthena (profile) wrote,
on 4-19-2006 at 8:22pm
let me clear some things up... in kirk's first relationship, which was with kelly, they didn't do much of anything but sit around and talk and eventually they stopped talking, they lasted eight months and never had sex... his second relationship was just sex, and it disgusted him so he got out of it because that wasn't what he wanted at all and he hated himself for it.

and he doesn't want me to kiss other people and probably expects me not to because that's just how it works in relationships. but he was using it to show how laid-back he is. which is really nice because there is no insecurity. he knows i won't cheat on him.

and he loves me. and i'm loving him the best that i can after jeremiah.

and that's that.



so, yeah... pretty much whatever. i don't really know what i want to say or how i should say it... so yeah.....

i just, i don't see the sex-driven person. i don't see it. i don't feel it. i feel like he really cares about me and wants me to be happy. we were all alone today for an hour and we didn't do anything. we just talked, and it was so nice. we went for a walk because he noticed how much sunlight affects me. we sat on the roof. we played with a love calculator site. we didn't have sex, we didn't make out, we didn't do any petting... we just hung out.

but my opinion doesn't count for much...

i'm just tired of this. i'm sorry for getting mad at you. it's stupid, i'm stupid, everything's stupid.

forgive me?

'feeling all alone... but i'll be close at hand...'

love,
amelia
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lillypad

04-19-06 11:40pm

already said that...

"all of his friends say all he cares about is sex and that's the only reason he wants you. i don't fully believe that, since he dated kelly"

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godessalthena

Re:, 04-19-06 11:48pm

so what's so disgusting?

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lillypad

Re: Re:, 04-19-06 11:50pm

ooh, darling darling dear. i don't think anything's disgusting.
i don't think you understand at all. this is hard....we really should talk in person....do you have any plans tomorrow morning post 8 am?

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godessalthena

Re: Re: Re:, 04-20-06 9:02am

but you said he was disgusting/made you feel disgusting so you didn't want to hang out with him anymore...

nope i have no plans.

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lillypad

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-20-06 9:07am

you wanna meet at 8?
you have to start the conversation cause i don't really remember what i need to talk about.

the hamster thing....there's something wrong with that...i feel like that around all people who who a weird fascination with live animal guts....it's not that bad though...and it's also the fact that he doesn't care about me, so i feel icky trying to care about him...you know..like those annoying people who cling to people who don't like them...

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godessalthena

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-20-06 9:23am

Meet where? I don't really know what we need to talk about either...

Are you sure he was serious about that? Because I really don't think he'd ever really do that or seriously consider it as an act..... do you really think he could do that??

And he doesn't NOT care about you. It's not like he hates you or anything...

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lillypad

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-20-06 9:28am

i don't know.
fron'o'th'jap'nese room?



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godessalthena

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-20-06 9:30am

okayz.

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Namu

04-20-06 12:40am

lemme ask you real quick, did you not like making out and stufez?

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godessalthena

Re:, 04-20-06 9:01am

oh, no, i loved making out and stuff. why?

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Namu

Re: Re:, 04-20-06 10:26am

I dunno, I've just been reading your entries, and am not sure if it sounds like you prefer not making out instead, thus making me believe that maybe you didn't like it in the first place. That's all.

ty

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rorin

04-20-06 9:41pm

I never said your opinion didn't count for much. It counts for everything. That's just the way I percieved things. Now I know it's good and he's good and you're good and that's all that matters. I just want you to be happy.

And you're not stupid. I just needed the explaination, I guess.

I <3 YOU!

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Anonymous

neo, 04-24-06 4:16pm

o.O

Whore.

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