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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 5-8-2006 at 6:15pm | |
| Current mood: blah Music: Jimmy Eat World... duh! Subject: quixotic bubbles in a vacuum |
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| i feel like i should be feeling something special. something like fear or anxiety or worry or anything... nostalgia maybe... i just don't really feel like those things... i feel surreal, like everything i experience isn't happening and everything that is coming isn't really ever going to make it here. i'm pressing on into oblivion with violins and cellos playing gently in the background. my time with brooke is growing so short. pretty soon she won't be around and i don't even get to look forward to the end of summer so i can see her again. and that should make me really sad and nervous and all that stuff, but it isn't and it's weird. i know i'll miss her, but... it isn't registering anymore... god damn my stupid brain and it's inablity to recognize things and make me feel the right way about it. i feel bad. like i'm letting someone down... like i'm not being the best i could be... i should be better. do something. i'm going to go do something that involves water. i'll do yea... whatever. 'you always know the perfect thing to say...' love, amelia |
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lillypad | 05-08-06 9:42pm i'm not sad about it either. it's weird...it hits me at weird times, like with those ear rings, but then i don't think about it anymore for a while. like...till tomorrow. |