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| brutisimo (profile) wrote, on 5-10-2006 at 12:22am | |
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| Well, here you go. myfirst one was stupid, but here is something that made me laugh: :: 2003 21 October :: 1.18 am :: Mood: better :: Music: none...watchin Briget Jones though... [ edit | delete ] Alright, so i am really sorry if i worried anyone with my last entry or my MSN name...i was having a breakdown and i REALLY just needed ryan...fortunately, he was there for me like he promised he always will be. We talked for like over an hour and i only cried three times and i only hung up on him once...that doesnt sound good, but it was better than i had expected...I am just so lost and i have trust issues and control issues and people walking all over me issues...basically i have a lot of issues and ryan really helps me put things in perspective...i may miss him or get mad at him a lot...but i dont know what i would do without him either...i guess it is a case of you cant live with em and you cant live without em... Her are my new goals... 1. Think about ME more 2. Tell people what i am thinking 3. Stop falling for the wrong guys 4. Stop trying to contol things so much 5. stop being so scared of getting close to people 6. Stop being afraid of being alone 7. Don't push people away 8. Don't let things build up 9. Stop worrying what other people think so much 10. Relax instead of doing what i would normally do which is stay up late and get nothing done, and feel like crap, i think i am going to go to bed...it is very draining to have a breakdown...I thank my lucky stars i have ryan, or else i dont know where i would be right now...i heart you Ryan!!! I called ryan cuz it made me feel like it (duh) and he laughed. I like that even after all the drama he is still my boy. i am excited about brad's b-day party this weekend. I miss those crazy davis boys. I LOVE THE DAVIS FAMILY! I think i need to marry into it. hmmm...who shoudl i chose... I am sick and need to sleep now. NIGHT |
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michellestar | 05-10-06 8:20am TEEN ANGST! |
brutisimo | Re:, 05-10-06 10:44pm i know, it was early freshman year. I had just turned 19...craze. I hang out w/people now wo are 19. Brad is turning 19...wow...
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