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brutisimo (profile) wrote,
on 6-14-2006 at 10:26am
i feel like every few days i lose focus. i have not drank or smoked gange since friday, but i still feel like maybe i have made a mistake hanging out with these people. i LOVE them, but they seen to be more intrerested in partying than relationship building or taking care of themselves. I dont know...i guess i just feel weird about spending so much time and energy on a bunch of people that dont know me and dont seem to care to really.

here is my other thing; i miss camp. I miss it more everyday and knowing that at this very moment they are at staff training and missing me (which i know they are because i have talked to 3 of the staff members from last year and they have all been very sad at my absence) makes it A LOT WORSE. I know that i made the right decision, but i can't help it, i miss it like crazy and i thik it is onl going to get worse the more alienated and sad kalamazoo makes me.

I have noticed that kzoo has a tendency to depress people. It is weird how people are happy, then they come here and it sucks the joy out of them...it is a joysucker. i have also noticed that people keep running away from kzoo. I want to run away, but i need something to run to, and want someone to run with...
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brutisimo

06-14-06 10:43am

actually, since i dont really "run"...i think a brisk walk would do.

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michellestar

Re:, 06-14-06 7:14pm

^haha

Yeah I don't know what it is about this place. It certainly does suck the life out of me though. I mean I have good days and all, but it's nothing compared to when I'm gone. Well, either way you'll be out of here in a year. Plus you're really good at meeting new people. For some reason I have no desire to meet new people here. No one I see interests me and I think that it's due to the fact that I don't want to put any effort in a place I no longer care for. But you've always been outgoing so I'm not really too worried about you. I'll be honest I don't really think the crowd you've been hanging out with is the greatest. I'm not really judging them or anything, I just think that you're not going to get anything good out of it. Okay, maybe I am judging, but not too harshly. :) Hey, Friday's gonna be uber-fun. I'm going to grind on you. You can't escape me. ::wiggles fingers::

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TaoMan1121

Re: Re:, 06-14-06 9:32pm

I think that last sentence and stage direction was more suggestive then you meant it. ;-)

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coot1120

Re: Re:, 06-15-06 3:58pm

I agree with Michelle about your new friends, but I also know that you do have fun with them so I just want to make sure that you are happy with whatever you are doing. And that I love you. And about Friday.....I'm going to grind on you as well. And it's going to be a lot of fun. And Michelle told me that I need to be girly so that means you too. And that's all I got.

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