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| rayray (profile) wrote, on 6-22-2006 at 11:45pm | |
| Well so far today, I got my lip split open when Mike and I were wrestling. Took a knee to the face. Took it like a man too. Then we went and looked at vehicles. He claims he's getting a mustang.. So we'll see how far that actually goes. Was asked who Brad was and why he left me a message on MSN that said "Goodnight DEAR". Still have yet to explain that whole story. Mike now thinks that I'm going to leave him for Brad. And I thought I was insecure. Yeah, thats about all. My lip hurts like a bitch though. It's cut good. Bled for atleast 20 minutes. Time to go watch a movie or the style channel or the CSI espisode I missed, if it's on.. So I got to the root of his unhappiness and sense of insecurity. He went through my phone and read a text message I had sent to Jay that said "I don't like feeling like a mom". Which is true, I don't. I feel like I have a lot of growing up to do yet, and shouldn't be feeling like a mom. I'm trying to force myself into thinking I don't want kids, because I don't want to turn out like my mom, and I would do anything to be with Mike for the rest of my life, and he doesn't want anymore kids. So he's apologizing for being a burden and making me feel like a mom and whatever other bullshit there is. But really, he's not a burden to me. He's not the one that makes me feel like a mom. It's that I clean all the time, and I have my own place. My apartment seems to get messy like really fast, when its only the two of us, and all we pretty much do is sleep. Hopefully in the morning I can get him to talk to me, and we can talk this out. Things have been going so wonderful lately too. And of course, I have to be the one to screw things up. I love him more than anything. |
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