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| m&ms487 (profile) wrote, on 6-25-2006 at 10:44am | |
| Current mood: contemplative |
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| Going camping the best break from here I could have had. It was so wonderful and smokey smelling. And I think I came out unscathed, except for, perhaps, a small bug bite that is developing on my right foot. It's itchy. I don't regret anything I have done. If I regret it, it's like exiling a part of me. Everything I have done is always going to be apart of me, whether I like it or not. We all have room for mistakes, and some fill that room sooner or more closely than others. But you only fill that room when you feel like something is a mistake. The door to my room hasn't been open in a while, and I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I'm not talking about petty mistakes, either. I'm talking about huge life changing, crying for days mistakes. I use to think everything was a mistake, that I was a mistake. I'm not sure exactly where I belong, but I know I'm not a mistake anymore, and whatever I do, and whereever I go, whoever I meet, I will be lucky to be there and do that, and talk to them, and see them, because I'm here, and by some will I can, and so I shall. I suppose a lot of that does not make much sense to anyone but me. That's fine. You never understand sex in a trashy romance novel until you actually have sex. You just can't understand some things until you feel them, and even then, you still may not be certain of them exactly. Perhaps we find solace only in the end. Perhaps we never find solace. And that's okay with me. "She told me son, fear is in the heart of love, so I never went back..." lushness? michelle |
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brianna | 06-25-06 11:18am This was a compelling entry. I know, somewhat, how you feel.
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sugarjackj | 06-25-06 7:08pm Amen.
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spinder | 06-26-06 1:09am Ohh.. damit... I JUST got that song out of my head... It took a hour of singing to myself in my car to santana and IZ to do that.. *sniff sniff* |