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| spud (profile) wrote, on 7-15-2006 at 1:18am | |
| Current mood: crappy |
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| meh. i've run the emotional gamut in the last 12 hours or so. it's been interesting. nothing in particular happened to cause this. it just kind of did it on its own. i know the feelings aren't true. i mean, they are real feelings, but they don't represent reality. but i can't just pretend the feelings don't exist. they obviously do. so, how do i strike that balance? tell me how. i want to go swimming. i want to run away. even if there's nothing to run away from. just dissapear for like a week. not to escape my problems. they'll be waiting anxiously when i return. and that's fine. i just want some time alone without them first, that's all. i wrote a horrible entry in opendiary. it just ran around in circles until i got tired. i don't know why i do this sometimes. perhaps it's a homeopathic remedy for paranoid psychosis. that would be nice. anything to stop me from freaking out anymore. dad would say to pray about it. mom would say to get medicine. bruce would say to take a break, relax somehow. or just plow through it. so, what would i say? i know i would say something. i just don't know what it is. |
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Tuwang | 07-15-06 2:36am You would tell me that I"m making it into a bigger deal than it is... and to chill out... but you're usually right
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phil-himself | 07-15-06 3:09am I think bruce had the right idea there |
| Anonymous | 07-15-06 10:56pm i went swimming today. got really sunburned. now let's see. i don't like that you are feeling crappy... prayer might work... or at least some kind of self reflection, i don't think medication is the answer. maybe a break of some form with the self reflection would be best. feel better.
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sugarjackj | 07-16-06 4:16pm Just run for awhile.
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eddy | 07-17-06 7:37am Isn't it strange how the hardest person to figure out is yourself? |