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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 7-16-2006 at 7:38am | |
| Current mood: sick |
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| i love stale water. but i hate being sick... i think i'm better than yesterday... i didn't have fever dreams last night... i feel all profound... i don't really know why... i know i'm happy and it's really, really great right now... but i'm scared. very scared. because whenever i find something that makes me happy it leaves me... or it gets taken away... or it gets broken... and i'm afraid that's going to happen this time.... and i don't want it to happen. i really want this to stay so i can always be happy like this... and i can't help but feel a little guilty because... i'm so happy and yet, part of me is sad... because part of me is still a pessimist and part of me is still thinking that this is going to crash and burn and acutally maybe kill me this time... because that's what it felt like last time... but i know that won't happen. because i'm a good person now. and he loves me. and i love him... and there is only one person that i don't want to say 'i love you' to him around... and that's jeremiah... because i don't want to break jeremiah's heart.... anymore than i have already. and maybe this is all because i've been sick... i've been lonely... and feeling like crap.... i hate feeling like crap. 'it's all for you...' love, amelia |
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| Anonymous | Millie....its..James, 07-17-06 3:20pm Millie, i mean thats what i knew u as. Im James, we used to talk years ago on MSN, and got kinda close friends sorta, dunno if you'd still wanna talk to me, but i was thinking of you and ran a search, and someone i got in contact with led me here, i dunno if you'd wanna talk to me still... its been a while. but i always had fond memories of you. incase you still dnt remember me, we met on planetarion, Pouria (or wazzer on IRC) used to hate me, and then you used to hate Sarah (who i never got with in the end, she turned out to be a BITCH!)
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| Anonymous | James...again, 07-17-06 10:07pm And another thing, im sure if things are going well, try to look on the good side, i hope you can, i read a few of your blog entries and you seem to have gone through some bad, and some good times, so i hope things do work out for you now... i really do! |