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| rayray (profile) wrote, on 8-12-2006 at 9:37am | |
| I hate stressing about things. Because then I sit here and my heart starts racing. And I start thinking about everything that is wrong, and all the things that could be wrong, should be wrong, and about to go wrong or that I feel like I have done wrong. But honestly, I've done nothing wrong, I don't think there's anything wrong, there's probably a lot of things that could be wrong, not sure what should be wrong and who knows whats about to go wrong. He doesn't come to bed right when he gets home, which is weird because he always has, even if it was just to lay with me for a little bit. This morning he left without saying anything (on the bike leaving all his stuff) and when I called him, he sounded like there was something wrong. But of course when I ask him about it, he says nothing. Which leaves me here, thinking there's something wrong. And I won't know if there really is something wrong until he gets back, and who knows what time that will be. And of course I'll stay here waiting until he does get back to find out. Because I am who I am, and I always think that the moment I leave when something is wrong, he's going to pack up all his stuff and just leave me. I had a dream last night that Courtney asked him out and he told her to give him to the rest of the day to answer. And when he came home he grabbed some of his stuff and made that phone call. And being that when I dream, it's like i'm having an actual conversation, I'm scared. It makes me feel like we're falling apart. Or maybe I'm just being stupid and paranoid. EDIT:So I get out of the shower and he's back home. And he's pissed off yet jumping with joy, because he got a letter from an impound saying that they have his truck. So we get to go pick up his truck and whatsuch.. Finally. Now I can give back the suburban, and my brother will get off my back! yay. |
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brianna | 08-11-06 4:16pm *hugs* I hope it's not anything serious. Maybe he's just moody. Keep your head up. Don't stress too much (yeah, right, I know). *more hugs* |
rayray | Re:, 08-11-06 6:07pm Things are fine we talked everything out on the way to GR to get his truck. and we talked more when we got home.. |