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TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote,
on 8-14-2006 at 3:14pm
Music: Beck - Deadweight
So I'm in this hella-bad-and-annoying super-Jason funk. It's basically of this f'ed up apartment situation that will be fine as soon as we get in, but is eating away at my soul until then. I've gotten to the point where I just disgust myself how much I've let everything get to me, and at the end of the day I just wonder where it all went. Maybe I need to accentuate the bad to prepare for the good, but I think mostly that this past year just beat all of the energy out of me, and now I need something (or someone) to light a fire up under my ass and jumpstart my engine.

I dunno what my deal is. I'm sorry... I'll get back on track soon, I promise. I just don't know how many responsibilities I'm going to neglect until then. Oh wait, yes I do: two.
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michellestar

08-14-06 3:46pm

I know how this is affecting you but just try to see it's temporary and really, in the big scheme of things, not a big deal. And you're right, it will be over soon...as in the next couple days. We have the place, it's a good one and that's all that matters. I know you already know that but sometimes it helps to hear it.

The past year sucked a lot for me too (une annee sans luminere) but what keeps me going is the fact that I have a new life awaiting me, that I get to be with you after a whole year of waiting, and that I have a chance to paint my future using one of the greatest cities in the world as my canvas. We both have that opportunity and this next week is just all the shit we have to get done for this to happen. It's only been two months since this all began...look at what we've managed to accomplish.

I love you and I promise the best is yet to come. I'll make sure of it.

And when the worrying starts to hurt
And the world feels like graves of dirt
Just close your eyes until
You can imagine this place
You're our secret space at will
SP

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