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Jacqui-Chan (profile) wrote,
on 9-21-2006 at 7:52pm
Current mood: anxious
Music: 89.9 Way FM
Subject: Scared...
I told my parents. I couldn't help it. I couldn't explain to them why Josh's parents didn't want us to go to homecoming without lying or telling them. And I am SO sick of lying. I'm sick of all of this. It's exhausting. Luckily my mom said that this feeling is punishment enough. She said it's easier to be punished by someone else than by yourself. That's what she likes about Steph and I, we punish ourselves before she even gets the chance.

My dad wasn't home when I told my mom, though. So I have to figure out what he'll say when they get home from the store. Josh scared me by saying that my parents were "there". I thought he meant his house, but he meant Meijer. I was FREAKIN' out! I do NOT want my parents and his parents to be talking about all this. I somehow think that'll make things worse. So yea, it was scary.

Anyway, I should go before they get home and freak out on me for being on here. Love you all. Hope to see you tomorrow, not dead.

Chao,
Jacqui
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softballchic

09-21-06 8:26pm

I think it's a good thing that you told them. You were miserable without them knowing. They love you unconditionally, Jekyll, and nothing you can do will ever change that. Here for you if you need to talk or just need a hug.
-het

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