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freaky (profile) wrote,
on 10-12-2006 at 9:55am
It's been forever since I actually posted something here.

Things have gone downhill so much, after Gaby left I lost love aswell. I will can never love Petra as I loved her. I don't think I can love anyone like that ever again and it bothers me.

School isn't coming along very well either. I got through the first year, but the second year just went bad again...
I'll probably drop out...again. I wish everything could just be good for once. Having a nice girlfriend that I can say I love her without wondering about it if I'm not sure about it. An education which I actually like or a well-paid job that doesn't make me feel like I live to work. But none of that will happen anyway.

It would take a fucking miracle. So maybe hell and heaven don't exist.
A good life is heaven and a bad life is hell. That would also explain the reincarnation thing if you ask me. I just wish I could feel without worries, that everything would go smooth. I don't know what else to do.
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Anonymous

ugh....love sucks, 10-26-06 4:15pm

hey...wow we seem to be on the same page again, like when i first met you. i am at an ultimate low right now as well. i guess love really does define life. i am back to the suicidal feeling. i hate this feeling. i have lost zach, forever i think. why is it that while i was with him the relationship felt incomplete and now i feel incomplete without it?? i have met someone else...but same as you, i am feeling that i will never be able to love him as i did zach. grrr....i feel like i am stuck in a soap opera. how did we become so emo?? damn love.
my temper has taken control of me. my own mother is afraid to not give me what i want for fear of what i might say/do. sounds nice in a way but it really isn't.
weird, i feel u are one of my best friends though we have never really met, u understand me better than anyone ever has besides zach....fuck i love the internet.
talk to me. i miss ur criticism...
i am still on gj as icing_addict if u want to comment there or read about my shitty life and i will check here too...if u bother to update. :-P
laterZ,
dani

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Freaky

Re: ugh....love sucks, 10-28-06 6:57pm

Its been a long time hasnt it? In my honest opinion I don't think live will get any better. Only if you ignore the negative facts in live and "settle" with the things you get you can be happy. But I just can't settle with that, I want something special. Like you said "i feel u are one of my best friends though we have never really met", stuff like that means alot to me. Its those little things that make it worth while I think.

The only thing you can do is just keep going on and on and on and on...when someone gives up it makes me kinda sad. What does someone got to lose? So just keep going right? Eventho it sucks. Who knows a miracle might happen and your life might turn into something you'd actually like...who knows. I mostly hang out on myspace.com these days.
www.myspace.com/2hell is my profile, check it out if you want to.

Just hang in there k? Seeyeh around Dani

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Anonymous

Re: Re: ugh....love sucks, 10-31-06 11:19am

i agree with you...the little things mean so much. i was talking to someone on gj and realized that if we didn't have the bad we would not recognize the good. think about it...if all you had was positive, you would probably go looking for the negative...part of the "grass is always greener" scenario.

anyway..i don't have myspace so it's really hard for me to comment there. if u have email, email me at icing_addict@hotmail.com.
laterz,
luv,
dani

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