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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 12-28-2006 at 9:42am | |
| Current mood: pensive |
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| life is very... ironic? i don't think that's the right word. it is funny in a cynical type of way. and the best part... is... i don't know. but man, it's funny. and sad. very, very sad. and cyclical. it's like... my life travels in circles and my friends lives move in circles and we are all circling in and out of eachothers circles while moving in our own circles and it's funny. and sad. because we all know that heartbreak will come again. and we all know that most of us will fall in love again. and we all know that we will be lied to again. and we all know that we will be hated again. and that's it. it will come and go in waves for the rest of our lives. and yet, this repetition is what we live for. it is what most of us love. do we love it because it's programmed into us? do we love it because it makes us forget that we will someday die? or is it because we know we will die one day and that makes now just that much better? or does it help us get through one more day, knowing that someday it will end...? how many people love life? how many people sit down and the first thing they think is, "isn't this great? life is wonderful." sometimes... i feel like i'm the only one who absolutely loves my life. i mean... what could be better than feeling like worthless crap a lot and then opening your eyes and see the sunlight and the trees and feel the wind and know that every single person in the whole wide world feels the exact same feelings as i do? i don't think very much could be better than that. well, i bet if i believed in real love life would be much better. but i can't help but think that the stories are all idealized lies that appeal to us because that ISNT THE WAY LIFE IS. or maybe it is the way life is and i'm just not alive. i don't know. all i know is, love... is rare. so rare that i question its existence. yes, i am in love. but it doesn't feel the same as the love described in faerie tales, movies and stories. it just doesn't feel like that. but don't get me wrong, it is nice. it is the best thing ever. ..... i really don't understand people. at all. "and this is all we need tonight..." love, amelia |
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hwnchick | 12-28-06 1:02pm as sad as it is, love really is something you have to work on. relationships take two devoted people. and when it really works out, it actually is a beautiful thing |