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| liz (profile) wrote, on 2-23-2003 at 8:16pm | |
| Wow here I am again. spilling my pyschological problems to the whole world. I am so depressed all the time. I don't know what is wrong with me Im like god am I like my mother. I love her but I don't want to be anything like her. ut I feel I am I look like her. got my physical inadequecies from her. and now her wonderful depression. I just want this hell I live in to be over. I know Joslyn you say appearance isnt everything but well my struggle with my weight and my nasty teeth are all causing me to have a frigging breakdown. I went to church and I felt no better even though people say hat church heals all. I dont feel it Im not even sure If I believe in god anymore. If there is a god why does my life suck so bad. Who really wants to be here anyway. and I always thought that familys were supposed to support you. well whenever I talk about my mom Deidra sas something in this bitchy tone that just makes me feel like shit. Like I dont even know how ot explain it. I dont even want to be around her when she is like that. you know. I just wish high school were over and I was by myself or with another family completely. my mom is so poor and my dad is so not and so my mom feels like shit because he is doing so much better than her and my dad is pissed cuz my mom dosent pay child support. divorced families suck ass. I will kill myself before I will put my children through the shit my parents put me through. and the thing is I dont think they realize that they are doing it. but for now I will go cry myself to sleep and hope that tomorrow is a better day. | |
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miniredhawk | Hey..., 02-25-03 8:10am Liz, if you ever need someone just to talk to, call me. I will listen for how ever long you need someone to listen for. I am always here to lend a shoulder for you. And who knows, my positive happy go lucky attitude may be contagious, eh? lol. Just call if you need need someone. |
miniredhawk | Hey..., 02-25-03 8:14am Liz, if you ever need someone just to talk to, call me. I will listen for how ever long you need someone to listen for. I am always here to lend a shoulder for you. And who knows, my positive happy go lucky attitude may be contagious, eh? lol. Just call if you need need someone. |