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| sendmemoney (profile) wrote, on 2-25-2003 at 11:25pm | |
| Current mood: defeated Music: from autumn to ashes - short stories with tragic endings Subject: standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in |
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| heartbreak number one . the way you didn’t call before nine o’clock because thirty-five cents a minute is out of my price range . and this afternoon when i left , and the leaves were blowing against my windshield , all i wanted was for them to be little shards of glass , bloodying my ears and eyes so that i could remain ignorant to what’s been going on. GODDAMMIT . is this what i get ? and i’m left wondering what would have happened if i brought it up when it was just a sneaking suspicion because i couldn’t distinguish between my and her perfume on your sheets . if giving you the letter would have prevented anything , or just been another laugh you two shared at my expense . and i don’t know if changing my mind will just bring heartbreak numbers two , three , and four , but i do know how foolish i’d appear . and that stupid Garfield shit that i laughed at – well, i’ll miss not seeing it in my driveway . and i’ll miss the bedtime phone calls , which i know i’m not getting anymore , because it’s almost 11:30 and my phone has not rang . and “i’m not done hugging you yet.” and all the other bullshit that i was too stupid to see through . all i had to do was turn on any romantic comedy and it would be right there , the 6654 lines i’ve been drinking down , but i didn’t . i’d “watch movies”, but not really watch them . maybe i should have paid a little closer attention to the movies and i’d realize they’d never quite live up to the movies you watched with her . i’ll never live up to her . so stop with the phone calls, because you’re breaking my heart . and even if you could read the sarcasm through pink type on blue background , there would be no need to try , because i’m not being sarcastic . actions speak louder than words, right ? then how come nothing i want to say is reflected in the way i hang up the phone ? | |
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lastangelspoken | 02-25-03 11:54pm i love you, i hope everything is okay. i wish i knew what to say at times like this, but i will not say the cliche "you can call me anytime" bullshit, because i know it is meaningless. you are strong willed and you will get through this. i love you <3 xox |
gabbagabbaman | 02-26-03 10:32am sorry your so sad ms super cool susuan |