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spud (profile) wrote,
on 12-13-2007 at 1:23pm
exams are over. the semester is over. nearly twenty-one years of my life are over. nearly 2008 years have passed since the institution of that which is currently referred to as the common era.

and mostly i'm just tired. i'm sexy, sitting here with my shirtless, pajama-pantsed self, waiting for the next thing to happen. mostly, i'm just trying to figure out what that next thing is, and what i need to do to prepare for it.

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and you know what the worst part is? i'm more than halfway done with college (62.5%, to be exact), and yet i feel as though i'm almost farther from my destination now than i was when i started. i know that's not true, but that's how it feels.

and i know that in the end it'll be over faster than i ever could have realized, and i'll wish it wasn't gone. but right now it just seems so oppressive and eternal, and - horribly - completely useless. i can't help but have this notion that i'm going to graduate and get some job that i could have gotten with a high school diploma, that has nothing at all to do with my major, and be utterly content for all of existence.

i suppose it's not a bad ending. but there's a very expensive extra half-decade thrown in there somewhere.
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liz

12-13-07 3:20pm

hence the reason that I walked off of campus for possibly the last time today.
I have decided to pursue the job that I want without the degree. so far so good and if I end up not being I can always go back, yeah it will be hard but I think it would be harder for me to put another year and half in and realize that it was time wasted. it may not be the greatest plan but I am going to see how it works for me.

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spud

Re:, 12-14-07 6:52pm

well best of luck to you.

i think i'm gonna stick it out. i never was one for the smart/easy way.

but i'm confident you'll do well.

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Anonymous

12-13-07 7:13pm

I'm feeling exactly the same way, Chris..
-Linds

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