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| spud (profile) wrote, on 12-31-2007 at 12:40am | |
| Current mood: on the precipice Music: jamie cullum / jamiroquai (libby's playlist) |
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| i've never really made a new year's resolution before. i mean, i've had little things that i decided to do or not do, but nothing monumental. kind of similar to lent. i give shit up for lent sometimes, but it doesn't fucking matter. i don't take it too seriously. mainly because i think it's bullshit. mom makes new year's resolutions every fucking year and never keeps them. which is far more huge than she realizes, because it exemplifies the much larger personal issues she has yet to overcome. the point is, this time i'm actually resolving to do (and not do) a few things. however, the chronology is merely coincidental. i would be doing these things, regardless of the time of year. which is why i'm not starting the effort precisely on new year's day. but i am making the effort ... and soon. additionally, i'm not doing it for anyone other than myself. to prove to myself that i don't have a problem. i mean, i know i don't, so in that sense i don't require proof, but that doesn't make the proving of it superfluous or unnecessary. i am essentially proving to myself that i can prove it, even though i know i don't need the proof itself, per se. how's that for circular logic? and i'm going to use the reallocation of funds idea that hunter gave me this evening as a part of that effort. and it's going to be brilliant. the only flaw is going to be making sure that the fund is not liquid, so that i wind up spending it on other stuff, which is what always happens. the fund has an express purpose. it's not a slush fund, it's exactly what i said it is, a reallocation to a different end. so, to recap: :: i am making some resolutions, which should resonate in my mind, body, and pocketbook. :: although it will be the new year, these are not new year's resolutions. :: although they are outward acts, these resolutions are for nobody's benefit or harm other than my own, despite their potential external impact. :: libby has a kickass playlist that's it. |
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sugarjackj | 01-01-08 11:13pm That was a lot of words for just talking yoursef in a circle.
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spud | Re:, 01-03-08 12:43am that's how i do. |