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| butterfly (profile) wrote, on 5-29-2008 at 4:58pm | |
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| I'm not sure how well this little summer escapade is going to blow over. Kelly doesn't have the money to come down here, and frankly I don't have the money to go up there. At least not right now. I won't go as far to say that I won't be up there at all this summer, but I'm also not going to say that it's looking in our favor atm. Life just seems to catch up with people at the worst of times. My parents have this little car that I'll use for now until I get a chance to take out a loan on a better one -and have the money to make the monthly payments- and I'm going to fill out an application for EFCO which is this window like place, and see about working there with Renkoski. I'll also fill one out for Wal-Mart and work from like 10pm - 7am because that's pretty much the only shift that they're hiring for. I guess that's fine, I can't really be too picky right now anyway. I'm not opposed to two jobs, especially when I don't really have much else going during the summer. Once school starts I'll have to cut back, of course. The only thing to worry about is talking to Kell. I know there's this huge deal about not having any regrets, but I do. My regret is not just saying fuck it and going to Ferris last August. I wouldn't have these problems now. I have so much guilt from that and it just weighs me down more and more. I feel like I've wasted so much of our relationship, of our life, just waiting to be together. I could have been there. We could have been together. I think I'll always regret that. |
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duckie | 05-30-08 9:01am Real life happens, and that's something that you both need to accept and roll with. Relationships, especially long distance ones, are not always peaches and cream, and sometimes things need to suck for awhile if it means it will get better in the long run. You two will be fine, and you've made it this far already. Think of how much you both have overcome and look how close you guys are to the end. You have, what? One more year of school left? That is going to fly by, and then you can be up here with him permanently. I know you guys will see each other before then, so for now, focus on getting a job and putting money away so you can see each other for one of your breaks.
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