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| spud (profile) wrote, on 6-19-2008 at 4:49pm | |
| Current mood: getting frustrated Subject: summer film |
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| so... as you are aware, if you're a devoted fan, i'm involved with the summer film project at GVSU. i feel kind of gipped in this whole experience, because it's been a mish-mash mess thus far. nobody knows who the professor is going to be, what positions the students are going to fill, or anything. not to mention, i've been getting emails from a wide assortment of people for the last three months, all claiming to be giving me information on what the fuck is going on. seriously a class act. not to mention, the week that my summer project starts, is the same week as the world premiere of last year's summer film. my theory is that, basically, the film department blew their load on last year's film, and now this year it's gonna suck. so, they're trying to publicize last year's film as much as possible in order to boost morale and public reception of GVSU's film dept. image or whatever. and i'm a sound person. i have made that no small secret to anyone. when i applied for the summer film, i told them specifically that i'm a sound person, and wanted to work with sound if at all possible. at first they told me i was going to be a grip. which, you know, i was not into or whatever. but gradually i warmed up to the idea, talked myself into how awesome it could be, met a bunch of the other grips on the roster and tried to get friendly with them a little bit. and now i get an email, less than a week before class starts, saying that i'm now a set dresser. yes. A SET DRESSER. what this has to do with sound, i know not. perhaps i will be able to manipulate the set in such a way that i will isolate its reverberative characteristics. yes? NO. there is no way i will have any impact on sound whatsoever! and all of that work i did on learning about lighting and shit, getting all buddy buddy with some of the grips is now completely out the fucking window. i'm with a bunch of other people i've never met, in a job i've never done. all the grips pretty much stayed the same. all the sound people changed, however, except for one. why i did not get one of the positions that was vacated during the shuffling, i know not. why the one person that remains from the initial lineup is the one that has no specific interest in sound whatsoever, is also beyond me. i feel like i'm not in the right place. for awhile i was. i was in the right place, doing the right things. now, somehow, i've gone and fucked it all up. and i don't know how to fix it. and it's manifesting itself in extremely unpleasant ways. i don't know. something just feels really really wrong. and i don't like it. i'm just absolutely petrified that this year's going to suck. a lot. and rather than going on my way, continuing in my career like everyone else, i'm going to be the world's biggest fuckup, with no place to live, no job, no life, and $200 a month in student loan payments that i can't afford to make. but i could be wrong. |
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| Anonymous | 06-22-08 8:11pm point one: man that kinda sucks a lot that you don't get to do what you want for this project... it really doesn't make sense at all.
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| Anonymous | 06-22-08 11:41pm Hey.. do you have a more structured summer schedule yet? Cuz we really need to do this hanging out thing soon. I'm usually free more during the week than the weekend. I could drive out to see you if you are still car-less. Also.. don't know if you got my message on livejournal.. but a couple of my girl friends (and maybe a guy or two) want to go skinny dipping sometime, and if you would like to you are welcome to come along. We don't know when we are going yet, maybe on a rainy night so it'll be empty again. Let me know.
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Atman | 06-23-08 11:26am Thats incredibly retarded how that project is working itself out. Isn't there a guy or girl or gimp or whatever that you can go smack around or talk to? I'm not exactly knowledgeable in the field of movies, but having a guy dedicated to sound not working on sound seems like one of those...uh...terrible fucking ideas. You aren't helpless and can work through being a set dresser if it comes to that, but it seems like talent is going to waste on it. |
spud | Re:, 06-24-08 2:27pm there are a bunch of people i can talk to. and i know that the squeaky wheel gets the grease. but i hate being that guy. so, for now, i'm gonna give it a shot. it might turn out that i really like doing set design. but if it's absolute shit, then i'll start a bitchfest.
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