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| xjayk (profile) wrote, on 12-9-2008 at 12:46am | |
| Maybe its just the season but... I miss my ritual walk with Hillary downtown and gazing in wonderment at all the christmas lights and though we both felt as if we were freezing we didn't say it, so we could stay out just a little longer. I miss how everyone once spent hours decorating their houses with christmas lights and decorations. Everything is wonderful now, it really is I have one of my best friends call me every day and ask me to come over even if we just sit across the table from one another and drink our coffee black because we used all the sugar on the kool-aid binge from the night before. I have the love of my life sleeping in the bed adjacent from mine, and every night when I wake up randomly he wakes at the same time and says I love you. I don't know how he wakes up when I don't make a sound, but its lovely it really is. Almost four years now and he still gives me butterflies and some of my friends look to me for relationship advice because of how long we've been together and still manage to stay happy. I never know what to say but I take the compliment humbly and just say 'give them space.' No one wants someone breathing down their neck twenty-four-seven. Give'em something to look foreward to. But this isn't relationship hour its just what keeps me happy. I got to see Hilly the other day. It really was the highlight of my week. The years have past so quickly and its amazing we've been together up to the double digits. Damn we're old. But at least we're growing old together right? I think that's what keeps me sane. I don't drone about how much time has past, I like to look at it as an on going adventure with the people I love and as every adventure people come and go. I like to remind myself of that sometimes when I'm driving alone in my car, radio turned down so I can hear my thoughts more clearly. Like in every movie there's a slow part, perhaps that's just what is happening right now, the slow on going part that seems trivial at the moment but ends up meaning the most at the end. Kind of like foreshadowing. Hillary is in college yeah big woop, nothing else is going on right? Well its the stepping stone to her fufilling her dreams soon. It maybe on going now but one day we'll look back and be like, wow, I really made something of myself. Its just something to think about. We're still young. We're still alive. We're still dreaming. I guess that's all for tonight, love you all. |
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xxxxxxxxxx | 12-09-08 4:41pm My god. I guess it is the season..
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