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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 12-16-2008 at 2:11pm | |
| Current mood: tired |
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| lately, i've been wishing more and more that i had never left seattle.. and that i never messed everything up. and he says it isn't my fault. but it's so hard not to see it as my fault. it is my back. and my stubbornness. but whatever, it isn't my fault, it's just an unfortuante situation. i'm just so frustrated with where i'm at. money is always a huge problem, finding a job that doesn't suck is impossible. food is always so low here. i feel like i'm living in the poor house with tons of debt.. wait.. i am. and then i feel guilty asking for help from my parents because they always send me on a huge guilt trip when i do. and i feel like i ruined christmas. idk, i'm just tired of how my life has been for the last few months. i don't hang out with friends, i don't have time to do anything i enjoy and i have no money to do anything with. it's just like.. the last few months have been crap city. though, because i am so awesome i am not escaping with substances. i am just bottling it up and getting ready for a breakdown. it sounds bad, but having a breakdown is better than being dependant on things that cost lots of money to sustain as a habit. meh, life has to be bad for you to enjoy the good. and it is seriously fuck all cold here. |
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rorin | 12-17-08 6:59pm All you have to do is hold on. Once you get better, you can move back to Seattle and be free.
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