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| cowboy67 (profile) wrote, on 3-1-2003 at 11:46am | |
| Current mood: tired Music: foo fighters Subject: in like a lion |
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| it's early for me being up on a saturday morning. i'm still yawning. i woke up because i was cold (my sheets and blanket have gone to hell and nothing is tucked in anymore) and cuz mark was making noise as usual. mark is my dad for those of you who don't know ;-) i feel like if i'm not sad, mad, thoughtful, or extremely excited/happy, there's really no point in writing in here. who really cares what i did today or what i want to do tomorrow? no one, because everyone is already preoccupied with their own yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows. and i think i should keep a record in which i write down the days that actually mattered to me at the time, or had some kind of impact on me that i can feel now. i wonder how many days out of a year that would be? there's two ways to look at it: the first being that every single little action you make adds to the way things are going to turn out in the end - every choice means something and will affect the outcome of life later on. i always love thinking of how one simple difference in the way you do something today could change the future dramatically. it's like the short story called "a sound of thunder" or something (for those of you who went to south lake, we read it in 8th grade.)... and say 3 years ago, instead of walking somewhere, i had decided to run. maybe i would be different now. bad example, but you know what i mean. i finally watched tv last night because "ferris bueller's day off" was on tnn. and there was this commericial for play station 2 or whatever and it showed a little village or something and played it backwards and showed how it came to be, things growing and whatnot, and it all started cuz a guy was walking through a big open field and he spit out a seed. so, one little seed had that much power. now, the other way to look at it is that certain things in your life stay basically the same all the time, no matter what you do to change it. like school for instance, you always go, no matter what different things you might do throughout the course of the year. obviously if you run away from home or handcuff yourself to your bed, you will be taking dramatic steps in order to escape school... but just "regular/normal" behavior won't change that. i suppose my point (yeah, i was surprised i had one too) is that every day goes by fast, with no action by us to make it worthwhile or interesting... no voluntary action at least... and yet every day has a role in shaping what's gonna happen. some of the most important things in my life have happened to me when i didn't even consciously try to get them. i think that's the greatest thing about life sometimes. |
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