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| gillette (profile) wrote, on 7-1-2009 at 11:12pm | |
| Subject: Beyonce Halo |
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| soo it's been a long time since i've updated more than a few strange words. so much has been happening. life is...insane. busy. spiraling everywhere. pain, love, excitement, hurt. moving forward, moving backward, sitting in the middle of it all. work is ridiculous. i work 32 hours plus a week. i hardly have any time to myself anymore. i definitely need the money more than anyone could ever know, but it's exhausting sometimes. i got a B+. a fucking B+. there goes my 4.0 at CMU. GONE------> ughhhhh i miss jake. i hate just 'visiting' with my boyfriend. i want him here, with me. i hate it. i feel alone, overwhelmed, grown up. doing things on my own. taking care of everything. trying to hold my family together, wishing my father was sober...scrounging for pills that the doctors office won't subscribe. my pharmacist says i'm the most 'normal, mature 21 year old that comes in here," again could be just because he loves me. maybe not. but he should know at least some about me since i'm forced to talk to him for half an hour increments everytime i go in there. he is kind of attractive which is the odd thing. he's like 28. weird. especially since i always feel skanky when i go in there either in my work uniform or some sort of sweat pants and tank top. bleh bought one bellybutton ring got four free. woohoo and bought a mouth guard so i don't grind my teeth down to the gums like i have been. it's annoying though and weird. when is my someday. i want it now. i want my turn. |
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phil-himself | 07-02-09 11:16am sounds like your pharmacist is coming on to you
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