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xxxxxxxxxx (profile) wrote,
on 9-3-2009 at 5:02pm
It's in your face,
It's in your hands,
It's in the air,
But you can't breath it.
You're not the one I used to know.
Gone to your head..

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I'm not sure I know what to do at this point. I start Baker in a few weeks, and I'm not completely sure what I want. At all.
For anything right now.
My mom put a bid on a house two days ago. I'm on the mortgage, so it's supposed to be exciting. We're probably going to get it. Hopefully.
I still miss Holland, and sometimes I still wonder what might of happened if I were to never move here. The memories are always nice.
I saw Alicia yesterday. I missed her. I don't see her as much as I should.
I almost quit Arby's. It's impossible to leave..
I've been feeling anxious again lately. I can't figure it all out again.
It's definitely getting old. I hate my reoccuring thoughts, as I always have.

I want contentment. And, it's my issue.
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xjayk

09-03-09 10:13pm

Your not the only one feeling anxious

If you stayed in Holland, we would have hit highschool and found freinds and slowly drift apart. You'd have your friends I'd have mine and we'd see eachother in the halls and think "I wonder what happend" but neither of us would have said anything. And gone on with our lives. But it wouldnt be the same. Personally though we've been through some of the hardest times of our lives together, I wouldn't change it for the world. It brought us closer. Now you couldn't seperate us if you wanted to.

I don't think you or I will ever be content. Maybe thats a good thing. We always have something else to strive for, searching for something better. Instead of settling for fastfood jobs and second grade diplomas.

Try thinking of it like that. You just need to find what you want in life. And get it.

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xxxxxxxxxx

Re: , 09-04-09 1:52pm

I should totally start thinking like that.
because you're right, I'm sure that's what would have happened.

I still need to ask for the weekend off, but text me or let me know on here which week days you have because arby's would be easier to get day's off with than my other job. just let me know and I'll let my manager know.

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losrnancr

09-03-09 10:55pm

i think all jobs are impossible to leave once you're there for a little while.. i dunno

hope you get the house

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xxxxxxxxxx

Re: , 09-04-09 1:53pm

I do too. I felt awful..

I miss you. What's been going on?

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losrnancr

Re: Re: , 09-05-09 1:11pm

got my own apartment now

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xxxxxxxxxx

Re: Re: Re: , 09-05-09 9:14pm

How're you liking it?

I'm never on MSN more. I'm never on anything anymore..
I feel bad I never keep in contact..
I still care a lot. I really do. I just feel like an ass for not showing it.



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losrnancr

Re: Re: Re: Re: , 09-05-09 10:12pm

it's okay everyone's busy

i like it a lot, i just got a little money from my grant for school so i'm starting to decorate how i want it

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xxxxxxxxxx

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 09-07-09 10:38am

Oooh, that's sweet.
How're you decorating it? I can only imagine all the Joey-style in one apartment! It'd be awesome. Haha

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