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rayray (profile) wrote,
on 3-26-2010 at 11:35pm
Subject: They say things happen for a reason, but why do bad things happen to good people?
I am excited about being pregnant.
I was even more excited that I was going to have someone to share my pregnancy with, and was even more excited that, that person was going to be my sister.
I wanted to have that bond with her, and have a child the same age as hers.
That way even though they weren't siblings, my child would still have a cousin the same age to grow up with. Someone close in age with him/her, like I didn't really have.
However, God had a different plan.
My sister had a miscarriage yesterday morning.
She is completely heartbroken, and I want to do everything I can to take away her pain.
I don't know how to console her, or help her through this, and that hurts me.
Reading her blog about the events that took place yesterday tore me apart inside.
It has been a half an hour since I read it, and I still have not managed to find a way to stop my own tears.

There are so many emotions that I have running through me right now, that I don't even know where to begin to try and seperate them, and work through them.

I just really wish I could be there with her and help her through this..
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jordanmackenzie7

03-27-10 7:13pm

The sad reality is, that you really can't help her. There isn't a word in this world that anyone could say to make her feel any better... if she's anything like me.

When I went through the same tragedy I felt like no one could understand what I was going through, although many have. I felt like my pain was mine alone, and all the condolences were hollow.

When that little baby died, so did a little part of me. And it's something that's almost impossible to fathom unless it's happened to you.

So when people pass judgment on me for wanting to start a family so early in my young life, I laugh inside. Because I was ready to be a mother. And now I am a mother, without a baby. It's not that I don't realize how stupid it is, it's that a large part of me doesn't care.

Obviously, God had another plan for me as well. He knew something I didn't... that it wasn't my time. So now I wait, and wait, and wait, for MY time. Because when it happens... I'll be ready.

I'll pray for your sister. And for your continued health during your pregnancy.

Good luck and God bless. <3

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chelthesmell

03-28-10 10:46pm

My sister was really depressed for a long time when she went through that and I felt the same way, I just wanted to take the pain away from her. Then a little while later, she got pregnant with my niece Kylie. I still think back to when she had the miscarraige though, esspecially when I was pregnant with Brody, and I wondered about that baby that didn't make it into the world. I wondered who that person might have grown to be. But then I think, that if she had that baby, my family wouldn't know what we'd be missing with someone as colorful as Kylie in our lives. And Kylie is the funniest person I know by the way, even at just the age of 7. I guess what I'm trying to say though, is even though it doesn't feel like it now, maybe a really beautiful thing might come after this really awful situation.

I'm terribley sorry for your sister's loss and the sadness that you are going through too Rachel. Your family is in my thoughts. Love ya!

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