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xjayk (profile) wrote,
on 5-6-2010 at 7:38pm
Call me Selfish

I don't care if I hang out with you or not.
I don't care if you care period.

I've been working alot and hanging out with old friends...and I feel so 'whatev' about everything. I don't care. About anything.
Thad and I are fine, but he never wants to hang out with me.
He does his thing and I do mine.
I've been working alot on photo's and its been good. I've just been so distracted.
I need to figure out a way to get to Rochester, Minnesota so I can be with my ma. I dont have long to come up with the money. Anyone with ideas?

I watched Finding Neverland last night with my sister and we both started bawling our eyes out. If I knew that movie was going to end that way I totally wouldn't have played it. I mean it was a great movie but the ending is harsh.

I don't really know why I'm updating. I guess just out of boredom and whatnot.

I wish I had someone that I could call no matter what time of the day or night, and just talk or have them come over. In the same breath I don't. I don't need anyone to be there for me constantly. It'd just be a nice change of pace. But I guess I have Thaddeus for that. But I just hate troubling him all the time, after he works all day to support us.

I'm hungry, but I dont want to run out and be forced to drive through that Tulip Time traffic. I need grocerys soo bad. We havent gone shopping in like three weeks...if not four. So we're completely cleaned out. Thank God pay day is tomorrow.

Man I come off so cynical in all of my posts. But man who really posts things when their in a happy or indifferent mood. *sigh*
Whatev

I dont remember the last time Thaddeus and I spent an entire day together. Man married life is lame. lol.
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05-07-10 12:43am

I don't think you're selfish at all.
You've been taking in and handling ridiculous amounts of things lately, and you're handling it all very well. That's a perfect example of my best friend right there.
Always trying to look on the bright side, even though you don't notice it. And maybe it's not even that, it's more like.. I don't know, you just do. You do and you don't expect. I love that about you. Not like you should expect from anyone, but you always have. Even before we learned it was a bad idea to trust people.

But yeah, so, what we talked about tonight - the whole job thing. It's totally a go. And I hope you read this before you go, so just incase you're having doubts about going through with it - you shouldn't. Things will work out. I know it. Pizza Hut will go on, and you will go on and do MUCH better things than flop dough on the ceiling. You and photography = amazing, awesome.. and every other great word I can think of. You have my support!! and Thad's :) He's your number one supporter now too. So, yes. No second thoughts!

Love ya

Hilly

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