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| rayray (profile) wrote, on 11-28-2010 at 4:01pm | |
| For the last 9 months, I thought that my whole life had changed when I found out I was pregnant on March 7th. Clearly I was wrong. On June 16th, when I found out I was having a baby girl, and cried because I was scared she was going to be just like me, an emotional wreck her whole life, and blame her mom for everything, I thought my whole world had changed. But again, I was wrong. It wasn't until November 8th, that my whole life had changed. This time I wasn't wrong. Welcoming my baby girl into this world, was the most amazing thing. It is so unbelievably amazing how you think your life can be complete with everything you have in it, until you have a child. Then you know your life is complete. Part of me believes that I could go the rest of my life without accomplishing another thing, and be okay, because I know that I have created a life, that will keep me going. I can't wait to watch her grow up. I am terrified that she will resent me the way I resent my mom. I am absolutely terrified I will turn out to be like my mom. But I know that if I do the best I can, and do everything I can not to be like her, I will be okay. |
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chelthesmell | 11-28-10 11:22pm Agreed! There's nothing like being a Mommy and there's nothing better than it for sure. No matter what I may do or become in my life, I am a Mother first and it's so amazing. =) Although Motherhood is full of many fears, it is well worth it in the end. I always say that I will love Brody no matter what. I've told AJ before that if Brody tried to murder me, I would visit him in Prison everyday because I will love him no matter what his thoughts of me may be. |
andy | 11-29-10 2:59am Lucky butt. I want to be a daddy. |
spud | 11-30-10 1:30am just be you.
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