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| 2ofus (profile) wrote, on 11-4-2013 at 12:31am | |
| Wow, haven't been on this site for a while. Not sure what brought me back. I guess I just need to write stuff down. I do most of my thinking at night. And ive had a lot of thinking time recently. My mind wanders. It takes me every which way. Recently it reviewed the Halloween party. It was fun, and the more I think about it, everyone was nice to me, except Lauren. Every chance she got she was insulting me or just talking bad about me. At least in the interaction I had. I know I may deserve some, but damn, it's been 2 years. Meh. Amelia seem cool. She may have drank a bit to much, but the conversation we had was nice. I've also seemed to notice attached females seems to hit on me more then single. It's about a 3 to 1 ratio. I know most of it is playful banter. I think the ratio is skewed because I know maybe 2 single females. Friday night was fun. First time gambling and broke even. Then fun afterwards. I got a good boost in confidence and realized sometimes I just need to be more confident and assertive. Its an attractive quality. I shouldn't be so nervous and just act sometimes. When laying in bed listening to Zero7, like now. It makes me want a girlfriend. I want someone I can lay next to and just stare and kiss and hold hands. Talking into the wee hours of the morning. Brushing the back of my finger lightly aginst her check and bringing to the back of her head, pulling her onto a kiss... That'd be nice. I miss kisses with meaning and feeling behind them. With that I'm off to the land of dreams. Goodnight all and be well. Ryan. |
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goodbye | 11-04-13 10:51am I know I was harsh on you a bit on the couch. Something else was going on that was irritating me. But all the rest was completely unintentional. It's a weird dynamic that I am still trying to deal with. I felt you were mean when I came over to bake cookies. But maybe that was perceived wrong as well. Just so you know, I don't have any hard feelings against you anymore. I've put those behind me. |
| 2ofus | Re: , 11-04-13 12:38pm I'm not sure how I was mean when you came when I was in my room 95 percent of the time. Anna said you guys wanted space so I gave you guys space. |
goodbye | Re: Re: , 11-04-13 1:45pm You didn't look at me and cranked up music that talked about killing bitches. Maybe that was just my subconscious thinking so... |
| 2ofus | Re: Re: Re: , 11-04-13 2:09pm No need yo read into it, I was playing league and had Pandora on random. Anna said before you came over that you wanted me to leave you guys to it so I did. |
goodbye | 11-04-13 10:53am I'm sorry if I insulted you. I didn't mean to at all. I was trying to just have fun and it probably ended up to be too tease-y... No excuse. I am sorylry though. Drunk+Lauren+Feelings=Clusterfuck. |
goodbye | Re: , 11-04-13 10:54am Sorry* |
koalalady | 11-04-13 1:54pm Holy shit, I was just thinking about your journal, like, yesterday and wondered where you went.
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| 2ofus | Re: , 11-04-13 2:10pm Heh, tis weird. |